The First Day of Autumn

A Year in Review, and HNT...The Last Hoorah

2011-12-28T22:18:00.001-04:00

This year has been...BAR NONE...the fastest of my life. I attribute this to low personal drama and increased activity in my day-to-day.

* I've gotten a handle on the Celiac Disease concerns and am much more comfortable with my food boundaries, have adapted my own kitchen, and feel at ease going out socially. I feel healthy and am more aware of what I put in my mouth. ;)

* I've stopped living in denial and accept the fact that I am, in fact, in a relationship with my dirty blond (old news to some). He is loving, kind, and is a "doer". He is always willing to lend a hand and finds clever solutions to life's little problems. He is an enhancement rather than a hindrance to my life, therefore I'm keeping him. Yeah, I said it...what?!

* With the assistance of my ex husband, his wife, and my first born, we have done a fantastic job of helping my sweet bubba (my baby boy) to a happier day-to-day life as a hyper (yet not conclusively diagnosed ADHD) and intelligent little boy.

* I've been emotionally available when my friends are in need of my attetion. Things come up from time to time, and it sure helps when life is flowing along well with me. I can really listen then.

* I still have a low tolerance for stupid people. Nothing has changed. As always, I keep an open mind to everyone I encounter.

* Though my computer time has drastically decreased, I still have great affection for some special people I've met in the past 3-plus years writing this blog and participating in HNT.

* I'm an impatient little princess sometimes! Just sayin.

All in all, it has been a really good year. I took the boys away to visit Sunshine and her son for Christmas. It was nice to spend time with my mother's family and have the boys over the holidays for a few consecutive days. I'm glad to be home, yet sad to be back to work so soon. I need a vacation from my little vacation...and New Year's Eve is yet to come...

One of my burn list goals is to set a little time aside to blog. I like the interaction and it seems like once I get out of a habit, I find it difficult to work back in. I'm excited about Os's little project *wait for it if I've posted too early* and hope to participate by posting comments over the next couple of nights. I sincerely hope that you've all had wonderful holidays and quality time with those you love. Best wishes

A couple of shots that I've been holding on to for a while now...

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Little checked dress shirt HNT

2011-11-23T22:22:00.000-04:00

Well hello there!

I have been soooo out of the loop, I don't even know who's doing what *or who for that matter hehe* but I took a few pictures and decided to drop by. My evenings have been quite full of social activity either in person, or on the telephone. I've been finding things a bit hectic, yet happy.

How the hell did it become American Thanksgiving already?

I've had this window open since about nine this evening and am just now typing the text. I'm a tired lady. We had our first major snowfall of the season. The roads were a mess, but we made it home safe and sound. All in all, not a bad day.

I've got several drafts in my post list that I'm really hoping to back to very soon. I hope everyone is feeling good as the festive season approaches.

loves autumn

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Lest We Forget

2011-11-11T11:15:00.003-04:00

Today is Remembrance Day. In the 11th month, on the 11th day, in the 11th hour we take time to remember all that our soldiers have done for us as a Country. It is an important day that gets less recognition as time passes. Old veterans die, and the significance of the day seems somewhat lost to our youth, unless we teach them and show them that it is still important.

My grandfather, and his brother went overseas to fight for our way of life in World War II. My father spent much of my young life away from home serving in the military. My ex-husband and many of my friends and acquaintances over the years have served in the Canadian Forces. I do respect what they do for me, for my family, and for our Nation. I will remember.

Make your kitty happy today hnt

2011-10-21T21:13:00.002-03:00

So, here I am after over two months of silence...I don't think I've ever been this quiet in my life!

The lovely Ms. Kayla (my rep from Edenfantasys) sent me a free review item in the summer. She has been extremely patient while waiting for me to get it finished, and I want to say a big *thank you! you rock!* to her for that. It has been a hectic couple of months for me and mine. Various activities have left me with much less spare time. My computer completely crapped out in August, and while I didn't lose everything, a great deal of my hard efforts compiling Relay contacts have been lost. I've been generally pissed off with technology and haven't been making a great effort to reconnect since getting my refurbished system up and running. Some blogger and real life friends have called/emailed to inquire about my lack of posts. Alright, I get the hint...it's time that Autumn speaks again.

I've chosen a rabbit vibrator for review. It's sleek and pretty and it's called the white heat double delights (image at the top of this post). As you know, I've got loves for things that help bring on a good orgasm. While I don't own a wide variety of sex toys, I definitely know what makes me feel good. I must admit that when I opened the box I was a bit apprehensive, but some things really do come in small packages...yay! The first thing I noticed were the spiral ridges running the entire length of the vibrator. I got myself all situated on my bed, coated the toy with maximus water based lube from my last review. This waterproof, double bullet clit stimulator *plus more* is not particularly noisy...just a low hum really. I like the contour of the shaft. The flexible section before you reach the bullet on the shaft allows you to move it around for your pleasure. I had a slight problem adjusting the cap so that I could turn it on and not unscrew it, but once I got that straightened out, I was good to go. I tried it first on my clit only, testing the speed and pressure. I slid the shaft into my pussy and pressed it so that the other bullet was resting on my clit. With a slight push up, I was able to hit that soft, spongy spot that sends me gushing. I have a tendency to judge sex toys not just based on if they make me cum, but how quickly and/or intensely it happens. So long as I am properly hydrated, I can orgasm many times. Such was the case with the white heat vibe. I would definitely give it a four star rating.

As I said, I enjoy the flexibility in the shaft. I explored with it a little...running the toy along my slit, down to my ass and back up again. The vibration level of this one really worked for me. I've used it several times with the same results.

In other news, my cousin Nessa turned 40 in September. We had a celebration for both of us at the peaceful place shortly after my birthday in July, but this time, she came here. Sunshine and I really wanted it to be special for Nessa as her husband is away for work often and wasn't around for her big 4-0. We wanted her to be surrounded by love and fun. We began with a delightful meal of bbq chicken, potatoes and veggies, followed by vast quantities of Como's, jello vodka shooters and tequila. A friend of mine who was also here baked a gluten free cake in a cock shaped pan. She decorated it with fondant icing, including some veins and cream filling. Mmm mmm good. DB was here as well. He offered to drive, but I didn't feel it was fair to make him sit around all evening while we painted nails, did hair and make-up, tried on clothes and giggled like mad and NOT even let him join the party fun! In hindsight, I'm happy I made the decision to drink with him. The aftermath was crazy fun! We went dancing, but before leaving we simply HAD to take some pictures. Look at Nessa...what a dirty, dirty girl she is grabbing those asscheeks! hehehe...we really did have fun. I got drunkity-drunk-drunk. I was quite proud of myself for managing the night in those sexy high heels.

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Nobody can teach me who I am HNT

2011-08-04T17:31:00.000-03:00

Ok, so July was a blur of activity. I had such wonderful adventures, it's difficult to express it all here. My visit with my brother the genius was AMAZING! We had wonderful conversation, and managed to see the CN Tower AND the Hockey Hall of Fame over and above just taking the bus, walking and subway travel around town. Those three days went by like a flash of lightening and I wish I'd had more time as grateful as I was for what I had. Sunshine and I really enjoyed our weekend get-away. Thought I would show her off for you all here.

On the Saturday night, there was a latin festival going on near my brother's place. Sunshine and I decided to walk up and check it out, however, we got there a little too late and missed all the music and dancing. We walked along, people watching as we went. Sunshine and I were walking in the direction of the festival while people were leaving. On our way, a group of women passed us and one turned, looked me up and down and said "ahhh preencess!"...highlight of the walk, I swear.

We spotted a group of ladies further up who were wearing these awesome cool feathery costumes. One of them had gorgeous white wings and I cursed the time wasted on a couple of extra rum drinks. Alas, we saw a stray dancer lady and decided to cross to the other side of the street and try to get pictures. There was a man carrying a great set of wings as well, surely part of the missed presentation. We ran for it to catch up and snap some pictures. Quite a scene of giggly girls.

For the actual day of my birthday, we did the sight seeing thing. I wore my tiara out all day *ahem...and also on the plane ride home* because it's just so much fun to be a princess! We had picked up a fabulous gluten free birthday cake the day before and I was sooo looking forward to having some before we left for home. I'm skipping those photos as the cake has stuff written on it that I do not wish to share here. Rest assured, it was a lovely cake. As you can see, I've posted a picture of my brother and I while we were out. Here's hoping he doesn't object to my posting this today. I'm assuming he will never find it honestly, since it's my private spot and all.

I feel like I had about a million more things to say here, however, I began the post last evening and am trying to finish up before DB arrives. We're going to a movie, then my friend Red is supposed to come by later also. Busy, busy! These pictures were taken near the Hockey Hall of Fame. There was an art exhibit of words and black and white images in that large corridor. They were all quite interesting, and there was a smattering of familiar names and faces. So cool! I'm going to make some blog rounds tomorrow evening after work as I will have a few hours all alone. Until then, please enjoy the clickies!

*click for a view of the 40year old princess*

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Birthdays, cool vacations and big bottles of lube to slick it up...HNT

2011-07-07T23:52:00.002-03:00

I'm leaving on a jet plane early tomorrow morning and I cannot express in words how excited I am right now. I haven't packed a thing...I mean NOTHING, though I have an idea what I would like to take. My summer wardrobe is sorely lacking. I am waiting for Sunshine to arrive, then I'm dragging her out for a little while to help me find some shorts and flat shoes (I can't wear my lovely red or black heels only). She doesn't know this yet, so don't go spoiling the surprise...mmmm kay? She told me that my only job for the month of July is to be a princess. My gosh, I'm so freakin spoiled! Sunshine contacted members of my family who either sent her money to go towards my flight, or sent me a little pocket money for the weekend. DB got me a totally bomb Cuisinart bbq for my balcony. :)

Ewww...there's something sticky on my keyboard. Why I felt the need to type it, I'm not sure, but YAYAYAYAYAY!!!! I'm going to see my brother the genius tomorrow! Ummmm can you tell I'm very happy? Yeah, I'm silly...what?

So, the fine folks at Edenfantasys were kind enough to send me a little treat to review for you all. I have had almost a month to post said review. The product arrived earlier than expected, and of course, my life was insane with Relay planning. Now that it's over and I've spent some time with my children and friends, this review is due. I owe it to you all, and to myself to spill my guts up in here more often!

*I've gone out shopping, packed my things and had drinks with Sunshine and now it's absolutely time to do dis thang*

I love water based lubes and have tried many different brands over the years. Now, I'm naturally quite moist, however, I do love the extra slip-n-slide that a good lubricant can offer. The Maximus water-based sensual lubricant *linked directly above, but click here and over here as well please* is a great product with sex toys. It keeps everything very slick and flowing until all that natural moisture works it's way out.

I've had several opportunities to test out my review product and here is my assessment:

This 8.45 FL. OZ bottle packs a lot of punch! Just think of all the sexy time sessions you could have with just this one bottle of lube. I mean for real! It comes with a pump dispenser for quick access in any sexy adult's bedroom fun. Of course, that's not to say you couldn't use it in the hallway, kitchen, livingroom or patio of you so desire. It's entirely in your hands. This product does not leave a sticky film on your hands, however, I do find that once the moisture is gone...it's really gone. ;)

It's fabulous for play with sex toys. I coated my vibe with it, added some to my body for good measure and went to town. I did not have to re-apply, which is a plus in my book. The wet feel held until I was done for that night and I have certainly used it likewise since then. Now, while the same could be said for the slickness with my partner, it does not have a very pleasant flavour...so do eat it.

Check out all the amazing products on the Edenfantasys website and happy shopping!

Now, I know it's easy to get distracted with all the sexyness in the photo below, however, if you are going to post a comment please help a chick out and say something about the review if you would? Thank you so much my loverlies.

DB got a preview of my dress, only the pink version. I wore this black one to work the other day with a little half shirt over my shoulders, and all I kept thinking back to him saying "No! Leave the dress on!" well you don't have to tell me twice. Ahhh pre-birthday sex is so much fun.

It's very late. I can sleep for about three and a half hours, then have to get ready to go to the airport. I didn't get to explore your posts but would very much like to when I get back. I'll be forty on Sunday. Still smiling!

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Lordy, Lordy...Autumn's turning forty

2011-06-27T17:17:00.002-03:00

I am turning forty in less than two weeks. I certainly don't feel 'old', though I know some people feel it's getting there. You know? My mother passed away at the age of thirty-eight. Since I was in my teens, folks have been telling me how young she was...I've never argued that. So, if my mother was so very young at thirty-eight...how can turning forty be bad? I'm young, capable and very sexy as well.

Sunshine was planning on throwing a party here at my place but she approached me on how it would be if we were NOT here at home that weekend. Well, since my ass is perpetually broke, it wasn't something I had considered. I am currently overwhelmed with emotion as my best friend and cousin Sunshine is taking us out of province to visit my brother. I haven't seen him in several years. I have some very profound shared experiences with him and cannot imagine a better birthday gift. We are going for two days but will make the most of it. I love big cities for variety. We plan to see a handful of sites and seek out some health food stores for gluten free goodness. I am genuinely touched and am SOOOOO EXCITED!

Two weeks after our out of province trip, I am traveling to my peaceful place to have another birthday celebration. I am such a lucky girl! It will be great for my friends to experience the joys of the cottage with me. DB and I are driving down the night before the party. I want to visit my mother's grave and show him around a little. I'm thrilled to have so many fun plans this summer.

I am pleased to report that my Relay For Life Survivor's Reception (as well as the entire Relay For Life Event) was a great success. I received many compliments on the layout, the speakers and on me personally. It was just lovely. I managed to get a donation of baby red spruce trees that I gave as gifts. I had the best team of volunteers on the day of the Event. They wrapped the trees and tied them with ribbon and attached a little card to each one. The card read: the human spirit needs places where nature has not been rearranged by the hand of man ~ author unknown

The Leadership Chair seems to have great faith in my abilities and has asked me to consider taking on that role on the committee next year. She has stepped down and would really like to see me do it. I must say, I am very flattered. I've no doubt that I can do it, but need to explore the time commitments that would be required. I will speak with her soon while it's still fresh in our minds and not in the fall when the new session starts. Hmmmm...lots to consider.

One last thing I need to say. The fine folks at Edenfantasies sent me something for review. I've been so busy with Relay preparations that I haven't had a chance to review the product yet, but I have tried it out a few times for good measure. I hope to post it along with an upcoming hnt post. Please comment! They really like that.

So, this is a post I wrote in the winter of 2008 in my original blog. Funny how things change over time. Pig's out and I'm on my own now. Different circumstances that opened the door for wonderful new experiences and happy days.

In 3 Years 160 days 1 hour and 45 minutes from now

I will be 40 years old. I am not upset about it, I just have lots of things I want to do before that. Some of these things include:

1. Going on an all inclusive trip down south somewhere. Difficult, but perhaps attainable.

2. Buy a house. I had one with the ex, but of course it was sold. It is a huge commitment to buy a house with someone, so I wait. I believe *the pig* and I will buy one together someday.

3. Now this is the most important one to me. It is a pipe dream, and I don't really know if it is AT ALL possible, but I want to have breast implants. CRAZY, I know! Since they arrived when I was 11-13, they have always belonged on 2 different bodies, and it has just gotten worse after having 2 children. They are 2 completely different cup sizes and I have to compensate by using both removable inserts in one cup to make them look even. I will take out a personal loan if I have to for this. I don't think people realize how serious I am about it. I can't imagine actually buying a bra that fits properly, it will be a new experience for me. It is not for vanity, or to please anyone but me. I am going to see my doctor and get a referral. I understand that this could take up to 1 year, so I am going to see her soon. I only have a little over 3 years to get this started. I understand that it will cost me approximately $7000.00. Am I crazy, or what?

4. I am going to run in a marathon someday. I would love to do it during my 40th year.

"see?

Clearly I never did work out the details of new boobies. I'm over it really. Don't think I wouldn't book it in a heartbeat if I won the lottery though. Yep. Definitely.

Rain HNT

2011-06-16T00:01:00.004-03:00

Oh my gosh...who else is just totally SICK of all this rain? Now, I know all of you don't live in the northern hemisphere, but it's been a sad, dreary spring where I am. "Mr. Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun...please shine down on me?!"

I am a huge Vancouver Canuks fan and they are playing for the Stanley Cup as I type this. I'm sorely disappointed that they haven't scored yet, but haven't given up faith. It's not only because they are a Canadian team, but because I recall very well the excitement in 1994 when they played the New York Rangers to game seven in Vancouver. Unfortunately, they didn't pull through and there was a subsequent riot in the city...me, safely in my apartment with a really cool chick I knew, drinking beer and watching the insanity unfold on television. Ahhhh the old days, well loved memories. I actually booked that night off work so that I could drink beer and watch hockey. Here we are again seventeen years later...hoping for a more positive outcome. GO VANCOUVER! Rrrr...third period now and Boston is up 3-0 not cool...and they have now won the Stanley Cup. Crap. I'm going to hear about this tomorrow for sure.

OK, so here it is...I've been gone so long that I'm afraid people won't really notice much if I post or not. That's not a "poor me" statement as I've been busy with other things and can't worry about that right now but I really am an attention hog when I'm out and about in my kittenish way.

On Relay for Life:

It's next Friday! Holy crap on a cracker it snuck up on me again! This year I chaired the Survivor portion of the Relay for Life event by myself. Of course, I have had good council and a lovely volunteer who gathered up many prizes to give at my event. What a treasure she is. I love Relay. I love the feeling of 'one' when we are there. It's a great thing to see so many people come together for a cause that effects so many of us. It's right down to the pinch now since my local event takes place on June 24. I've got the food, volunteers and speakers under control. I've missed a couple of small things along they way but and really getting into a grove. The only disadvantage is that I often leave my personal team fundraising until very late in the game. I'm doing all right though. I've been asking around at work.

On health:

I recently had more blood tests. A re-test on Celiac, Thyroid, B12, iron, folic acid, as well as various cholesterol/heart related tests. Apparently, everything but my thyroid is above average on the plus side. Can't complain there. Obviously the gluten free diet agrees with me. I have to go back in three months to have more blood drawn to see what's up with my high levels on the thyroid thing. hmmm...

My bubba was recently diagnosed with ADHD. He's been off the red dye for the past four years or so and eats quite healthy. We're doing all we can until we can see a pediatrician at the end of the summer. He's a very bright boy and he will do just fine. He's always been very special. It's all good. My first born is in fabulous health, which is wonderful.

On happiness:

I'm just fucking happy. I feel calmer than I ever have before. Not just in recent years, but in my life. I believe some of this to be diet/health related but it's so much more than that. I've always had anxiety problems, and by that I mean hyperventilating and all, not fun. While I sort of feel it coming on at times, I am able to sort it out before it becomes an issue. Do you know something? For the first time ever, I have consistently spent over a year hanging out with the same man and he has yet to say anything truly hurtful or negative about me. I'm so glad to have such a great friend and lover in my dirty blond. I don't say much because I get tired of having everyone tell me how much hurt I am in for. Do you think I don't realize this? I really do have my eyes open. I will always look back on this time in my life very fondly. That's just how I roll. My life is enriched. I am in a good head space. End of rant, nothing to see here.

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"We're going to have sex outside now." HNT

2011-05-18T21:34:00.001-03:00

First of all, I effin LOVE this song!

After assessing the situation on the pool deck, the sexy bitch decided it *might* not be prudent to have sex out there...risky business for certain...however, the bright light of day is so different than the cover of darkness.

Several drinks and sexy time sessions later, she made her choice and simply said to her dirty blond "we're going to have sex outside now". This was not a question, but a statement. She walked toward the door and he followed. She knew her weekend tryst would not be complete without doing this. They headed towards the stairs near the gazebo and once there, began to kiss. Her body hot and already tingling with pure desire, she could barely contain her enthusiasm as their lips connected. She climbed onto his lap in her short skirt and tall boots, wanting to be swallowed whole. She wrapped her arms around him fiercely, never losing his gaze. She moved her hips in circles, feeling his hard cock lightly rubbing against her already soaked pussy. She took his manhood in her hand and used it as she would any sex toy in her collection, running it up and down the length of her while softly moaning. Intensity built to a boiling point as she began to gush...hot ejaculation splashing onto them and the stairs underfoot. Then he entered her. All concern of onlookers or cold temperatures tossed aside, they allowed ecstasy to take over.

Having already cum so many times earlier that evening, they were rather shocked at the volume of liquid this sexy hot bitch could expel. As she stared into his eyes and rode him for all she was worth, she came again...so much so that her heels began to slip on the wooden stairs. The dirty blond kept a tight grip and prevented her from falling as he continued to fuck her, feeling her love juice spill onto his cock over and over again. After giving her much attention and pleasure, the dirty blond felt his orgasm growing within and he came as he looked into the eyes of his sexy bitch. They spent a long time on those stairs, lost in the intensity of the experience.

*actually, I was telling DB today that I was posting about that particular encounter and he said it was "sex dripping with passion". I must agree. Talk about intense, holy fucking hell it was sexy.

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Last of the red series HNT

2011-04-21T11:23:00.003-03:00

Ok, so this is super last minute and has to be quick! I'm only home for about 20 minutes for lunch and decided, hell, why not post a pretty picture on this rainy Thursday?

This was my favourite of all the pictures taken at the hotel. I love everything about it and didn't alter a thing.

I missed Osbasso's birthday last week. So sorry about that my friend! I sure hope it was a fantastic day for you. Head over and let everyone know your post is up, also hug Os for me please. happy thursday

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Another dose of simple truths coming your way...

2011-04-19T11:22:00.004-03:00

Quite a long time ago, I began composing little posts that I called "simple truths". The source for the most part was these advertisement pamphlets I get at work. The company stopped sending my weekly doses, which made me a little sad. Imagine my enthusiasm this morning when I went through the mail and found that they've started sending them again yay!

Life is not a matter of holding good cards. Rather, it's playing a poor hand well.

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The little boy who forgot why his mother sent him to the store grew up to be a politician.

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Following his medical exam, the elderly trendsetter asked his doctor whether he was going to have to give up wine, women, tobacco and song. "You may sing as much as you like," the doctor replied.

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The tongue is in a wet place and easily slips.

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Any household task is fascinating to a child until he's old enough to do it.

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The cost of living is always about the same - what you have and a little bit more.

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When you give up on yourself, you've committed a crime, and it carries with it a life sentence.

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If you're having trouble meeting new people, pick up the wrong golf ball.

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Always remember that you'll never ruin your eyesight taking the time to look on the bright side.

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Did you hear about the new toothpaste with shoe polish in it? It's for those people who have a habit of putting their foot in their mouth.

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Don't find fault. Find a solution.

Have a fabulous Tuesday!

The kitten's out of the bag HNT

2011-04-06T21:40:00.005-03:00

Drama Alert!

I *think* someone at work knows about DB and I. Why do I believe this? Because on Tuesday, a guy who just came back to work this week (hasn't been there since November) said to DB directly "So, someone told me that you and Autumn hooked up." He lied and said we hadn't because there were other people there as well. I'm trying to figure out who that 'someone' is...I am not sure yet if it's based on anything concrete (for instance, a couple of guys from work live quite close to me and may have seen DB at my door or something) or if purely only speculation. The hustler knows, but I can't imagine who he would have been speaking to about it. I assure you, I've found my peace (and my piece of course) with the obvious age difference between us. I'm not concerned about what most of my co-workers think of me, but I do respect the owners and would not like for them to know my personal business. I am pretty sure I've said before that it's not my first time being involved with a co-worker. But you know...people love to talk. I suppose it's still pretty cool that it was a secret for over a year now anyhow. I work with a lot of men and two other women. Almost every man in the warehouse has flirted with me at one point or another. I think they just really want to know if someone has gotten to fuck me, then get the juicy details (no pun intended). DB's not the type though. He's not keen on letting the whole office in on our business. Of course, he has no issue with telling friends and family (parents included to my surprise). He said to me "Well Autumn, I'm not ashamed of you. I had to tell them eventually since I stay over at your place often." Fair enough. Leads me to wonder what they must think, or if they are Ok with it. Interesting, but i digress...where was I? Gawd this is a long paragraph. Should I have broken it up? Why does it matter? I think I'm actually going to post this as is and not delete these last sentences.

The Web Design class is over, however, I'm late getting my final project done. Pretty web pages and consistency on the brain. I only have the program at work and my remote connection won't work from my home computer. I felt like skipping the last class because it wasn't done and I had a flash of high school all over again...RRRaaaahhhhh! I will get it done, and it will be cool. I don't have a domain so I can't actually have it published on the web, but it is a very detailed process and I've learned a few cool tricks. None that I feel like using tonight, but I will. It's been a busy time in life. I'm not quite sure how this whole situation is going to play out. I would be very surprised if one of the guys asked me. I don't think anyone would have the nerve really. I will try my best to be less of a lame ass and let you know what's happening. That reminds me that I still have to post the "we're going to have sex outside now" story. It's coming. Things are calming a little.

*I love this picture!*

Now go see Osbasso and let him know your post is up. happy thursday

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Lost in the woods ~ Autumn's adventures in the wilderness

2011-04-04T21:10:00.009-03:00

Two weeks ago at about this same time of night(9:15pm) the dirty blond and I were just getting out of the woods. Now, we didn't quite come out where we thought we would that's for sure! And this is how it happened...

It sounds suspiciously like an opportunity to have some sexy time, but alas...we had nearly two hours until I was scheduled to pick up my eldest son and no where private enough to fool around. We actually get together for walks often while I'm waiting for the boys to be through with their Monday night activities. We parked the car by a gate that led to a four-wheeler trail in a large wooded area near his house and started walking. I was wearing my new pair of Nike sneakers, comfy leggings and my winter coat. Ready for action, but still looking sexy of course. ;) The trails were fairly wide and a bit muddy with soft mossy edges. There were small mounds of snow around but nothing to trudge through really. It was rather nice to have the little piles of snow around to clean the mud from my shiny new sneakers, truth be told. We walked for nearly an hour from trail to trail and suddenly found ourselves out of directions with set paths. Hmmm...I know it sounds odd. Logically, we just go back the way we came, however, that did not work.

We tried to backtrack but realized about twenty minutes later that we were, in fact, LOST in the woods. I mean REALLY! Now, in many ways, I am a very girlie girl but I do enjoy hiking and am not afraid of being in the woods. This was helpful given the circumstance. Understand that I did start to panic...not so much because we were lost, but because I was supposed to be picking up my child very soon and couldn't get back to my car. I had to make a very embarrassing phone call to my ex husband's house to ask either he or his wife to pick up my son until I could get from their place when I got out of the woods. *sighs ~ that's never a fun call to make* Worked out well and I had a giggle with the ex's wife on the phone. She said she would pick him up and I could come get him once I'm back to the car.

DB was feeling just horrible. I think he may have been waiting for me to lose my cool but I didn't. I understood we got lost together and was definitely NOT playing any sort of blame game even in my mind. We were quickly losing light and I just wanted to get the fuck out already! We abandoned the trails entirely, did some serious back woods hiking and followed the faint light of the houses we couldn't see yet. We were climbing over piles of fallen trees, stomping through snow, using logs as balance beams to cross over water...the effin works! I snagged the back of my leggings on a tree branch and fell onto a log and bent my right fingers back at a crazy angle all at the same time. Ouch...kept on going. DB reached out to help me up but I needed a moment to compose myself. He looked so sweet, just wanting to help and be sure I was ok. I assured him I was not angry, just in a little pain but ready to keep going. A few moments later, we came to a little slope. I stepped on a bit of grass?moss?...I dunno, but my feet went right into some seriously icy water then. I spent the final forty minutes of our adventure with frozen feet, rips in my pants and a little hurt pride, but we made it out. Now, as soon as we got out of the woods and onto a quiet little side street, DB and I realized that we had gone the full length of the wooded area and into another subdivision, several kilometers from where we needed to be. We did not come out AT ALL where we thought we would. I know there was a moment when one of those news broadcasts about people missing in the woods flashed before my eyes, and I thought 'oh no! not me, I'm getting out of here'. Not now, right now. It's a good thing we didn't get eaten by coyotes!

I picked up my son and we arrived home close to 10:00pm that night. I was tired from my rather vigorous hike and dying to get out of my wet shoes and assess the damages to my legs. Oh my...what a mess! That branch I snagged left an eight inch scrape, my knee was bloody, and I had a number of minor abrasions. Crazy. Just plain crazy. I considered taking pictures of my bruised up legs a couple of days later but decided perhaps I didn't feel like remembering through picture. Once I got my son off to bed and had a hot shower, I called Sunshine to tell her all about it and of course, she laughed her ass off. Can't blame her.

Still chillin at the hotel here HNT

2011-03-30T21:23:00.003-03:00

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Osbasso always has something interesting to say! You know what to do...happy thursday

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Meanwhile, back in the swanky hotel room...

2011-03-27T21:30:00.004-03:00

Once we settled into the room, DB took some pictures for me. I figured it was a good idea to do that nice and early before the rum/tequila buzz set in and I forgot all about it. See, we had our night in sessions. Early evening "let's enjoy the king sized bed" sex, sweet and sexy during/after a whirlpool bath sex, then dirty "we're going to have sex outside now" tequila shot inspired sex. We'll get to that session in a later post. ;)

Can you see a hint of my new red shoes there? They are oh so loverly and I can't wait until the warm weather hits and I can wear them out in public. The dirty blond is a big fan of heels. I packed the red ones and wore my tall black bitch boots for the convenience of packing. Once those pictures were taken and we had eaten some supper, we decided to try out the bed. Mmmmm...we have reached a comfort level which is optimal for truly awesome orgasms for each of us. It seems that once he begins to work those fingers and tongue on me, I simply cannot stop cumming. Now, I'm not saying that's a bad thing, just that holyshitwow! it just goes on and on. More than ever before, I have also been able to experience those super intense gspot orgasms during intercourse. By the time he came the first time, we found ourselves slick with my love juices intermingled with his, and literally dripping with the very essence of my sex.

And here is yet another view of the whirlpool and a clearer picture of my shoes. More to follow on my fabulous weekend adventure.

Swanky hotel room for the night HNT

2011-03-23T21:51:00.000-03:00

Ok so holla!...that tub was next to the bed. How cool is that?! DB (the dirty blond) and I have been talking about getting a room for the past three months or so and we finally picked a place and date to do it up right. We wanted a place to hole up for a night without phone calls and other outside influences, have crazy monkey sex in a new place and party like the rock stars we clearly are in those moments. We decided to go for something a little nicer than a roadside motel. Somewhere we could be truly comfortable for the night. I found a place relatively close to home and showed him the pictures online. We agreed this was the place and booked it for Saturday night past. It was quite lovely. We had a little patio area (on ground level) that faced the pool deck. The pool is not so appealing this time of year however, it was nice to have a place to smoke (yeah, I said it). I came with my cooler from home because of my dietary needs and was a little upset upon discovering (while checking in) that our room didn't have a mini fridge. The lady helping us had one sent to our room *along with extra towels* within half hour of our arrival. She called to say sorry that it had taken so long but they had two wedding parties there as well, so it was hectic. I was impressed with the service, staff, rooms and room service menu with an ENTIRE PAGE of gluten free items.

The last few days have been crazy insane over here. I feel like if I start typing everything, it will most certainly be too long for this post. I am determined to tell you all about the fabulous sexytime and great conversation of this past weekend and I've got many more hnt pics taken at the hotel that I'd like to share. My weekend could not have been spent in better company and the sex was so powerful, I was tender for a couple of days afterwards. mmmmm sex...

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Song for a winter's night and a little hnt

2011-02-24T00:09:00.009-04:00

Today is the anniversary of my mother's passing. In recognition and great respect, I always like to post something about it. Without her, I would not be the woman that I am today. I am grateful for her influence and kindness in my early years.

I really enjoy Sarah McLachlan (home-grown Canadian girl) and this song has always reminded me of how I feel about Mom.

The lamp is burning low upon my table top
the snow is softly falling
The air is still in the silence of my room
I hear your voice softly calling
If I could only have you near
to breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
on this winter night with you

The smoke is rising in the shadows overhead
my glass is almost empty
I read again between the lines upon each page
the words of love you sent me
If I could know within my heart
that you were lonely too
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
on this winter's night with you

The fire is dying now, my lamp is growing dim
the shades of night are lifting
The morning light steals across my windowpane
where webs of snow are drifting
If I could only have you near
to breathe a sigh or two
I would be happy just to hold the hands I love
and to be once again with with you
To be once again with with you.

I simply miss her. What I wouldn't give to hold her hands in mine and just talk with her.

I've noticed over the past year or so that I really wish I had a source of information regarding my early childhood. My father was away for work a lot, my brother suffers from clinical depression and I *might* get a chance to speak with him once a year of so. Both of my mother's parents have passed. This leaves my mother, who has been gone since I was thirteen, who would actually have this information. My young one has been having some emotional challenges and trouble focusing at times. Through the course of discovery with him, I longed for someone to ask questions to. Someone who knew me in my home environment, you know? Not how I behaved while I was out, but how I was at home with my family. One might say "Autumn, you can't dwell on this." and yes. I know and understand that, however, in light of what's going on with my son, well...it's just on my mind a bit more.

I've received a couple of emails inquiring as to my health and/or emotional state as I've not been blogging for some time now. Honestly, I feel like the past two months have gone in the blink of an eye and something had to give. I had to let go of something, but not anything that directly effects my day-to-day life, you know? Realistically, I was having trouble commenting and viewing the blogs of others and I was suffering from blogger guilt, see?

Since discovering the Celiac Disease in late August 2010, I've been struggling to find a good balance and to NOT obsess about food. I've been taking an antibiotic to help clear my skin and one of the side effects is a loss of appetite. I was already struggling to eat, so that didn't help. I tried going on Champix to quit smoking also but I stopped taking it because it made me nauseous every morning and my food tasted like cardboard. Too much for this little lady to take on all at once. I've definitely lost weight, but am feeling healthy and by no means undernourished. Because of my food obsessions, I can't seem to stop talking about it with my friends and co-workers. Did you know that I can't lick stamps and envelopes anymore? It never in a million years occurred to me that it would be an issue, but of course...flour is a component of glue. The things you learn!

I'm taking a night class in Web Design. My company is having a new website created and they have enrolled me in this course so that I am able to make periodic changes to the site in the future. It may lead to a Photoshop course as well, which would be bomb. I DO love taking pictures. Speaking of, I haven't taken any sort of sexy ones since just after Christmas. My word, with my course, the kids, Relay prep, work and my sexy dirty blond...whew...it's a full time gig but things are going well.

I've been deep in hibernation up in the Great White North. I feel somewhat out of touch with some of my local female friends even! I get home from work, turn around and before I know it...it's already bedtime. What's up with that?

I'm enjoying a little time off with my children, and decided it might be nice to post something purty for you.

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Go see whatOs has been doing lately and don't forget to comment and let everyone know your post is up. happy thursday

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Dirty Little Freaks HNT

2011-01-12T21:10:00.000-04:00

Raise Your Glass ~ Pink

Right right, turn off the lights,
we're gonna lose our minds tonight,
what's the dealio?

I love when it's all too much,
5am turn the radio up
where's the rock and roll?

Party Crasher,
Panty Snatcher,
Call me up if you want gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancey
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
in all the right ways,
all my underdogs,
we will never be never be anything but loud
and nitty gritty dirty little freaks
won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
just come on and come on and raise your glass

Slam slam, oh hot damn
what part of party don't you understand,
wish you'd just freak out (freak out already)
can't stop, coming in hot,
I should be locked up right on the spot
it's so on right now (so fuckin on right now)

Party Crasher,
Panty Snatcher,
Call me up if you want gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancey
Why so serious?

So raise your glass if you are wrong,
in all the right ways,
we will never be never be anything but loud
and nitty gritty dirty little freaks
won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
just come on and come on and raise your glass
won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
just come on and come on and raise your glass

(oh shit my glass is empty, that sucks)

So if you're too school for cool,
and you're treated like a fool,
you can choose to let it go
we can always, we can always,
party on our own

(so raise your) So raise your glass if you are wrong,
in all the right ways,
all my underdogs,
we will never be never be anything but loud
and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
So raise your glass if you are wrong,
in all the right ways,
all my underdogs,
we will never be never be anything but loud
and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks
won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,
just come on and come on and raise your glass
won't you come on and come on and raise your glass,(for me)
just come on and come on and raise your glass (for me)

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Aren't we all just dirty little freaks on some level? tehehe...

Wait...it's thrusday again already?! Go see Osbasso and join the game.

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The gift that keeps on giving HNT

2011-01-05T22:00:00.001-04:00

So, clearly I didn't get back to blogging over the holidays. For any new to my blog folks out there who have commented...please don't think I'm snubbing you. I'm just kinda lame at time management skills sometimes. I appreciate each and every comment I receive here and thank you for reading.

During the month of December, I hummed and hawed about whether or not to get a gift for my dirty blond. I generally buy only for my children with few exceptions. Yes, this includes family. They all live a quite a distance from me, and it's just not our family way I guess. For whatever reason, I didn't want to bring it up with him directly because I didn't want him to think I was expecting a gift, ya know? After a discussion with Sunshine on the phone, I decided to get some lingerie to wear for my lover instead of a traditional gift. I also made dinner and holiday goodies and such, so I figured it was sufficient. Turns out he DID get me something. I'm telling you, I was so impressed with his efforts. I had told him about this shop I love where I can get really nice scented candles and such. It's quite a distance from his house, but he drove his ass all the way there to buy me something special. He got me this really awesome candle holder and some soy wax to burn in the glass tray above the tea lite. I've been lighting it almost daily as it smells so nice in my house. He makes me smile. As you know, my boys were away for an entire 10 days over the holidays. I missed them very much and worked hard to occupy my time and mind so that I didn't notice as much. The dirty blond spent 4 nights at my house. A couple before, and a couple after Christmas.

Just so it's clear...he REALLY liked the lingerie I bought *seen in the picture below* and I had such a fabulous time romping about in it. :)

Here we are in a brand new year, so go see Os and let the fun begin! happy thursday!

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Reflections of 2010 HNT

2010-12-29T21:12:00.002-04:00

Where the hell did 2010 go? My word, that was the fastest year ever for me. I've done plenty of self reflection over the past 12 months. There have been some difficult times, yet overall it's been a very good year. I'm happy. Now, right at the moment I am feeling a bit discouraged. The boys were supposed to be home tonight *i'm writing wednesday of course* but there was a problem with the plane and they are held over until morning. I've got suspended Christmas Eve here in my living room. I am so excited to see them I can barely contain it! I'm sipping rye alone tonight while I wait.

I've chosen my top three favourite pictures of the year *with a bonus click on the last one* to show you for this week's hnt as per Osbasso's theme.

Unwritten, March 2010~~I just love this picture. It looks soft, pretty and my skin looks so lovely. I'm proud to have such perky little boobies at age 39. ;)

Too Sexy, April 2010 ~~If you didn't know this about me, I've got acne. I don't enjoy pictures of my face as much because the redness is always the first thing I notice. The angles and tones of this picture don't show this at all. I used this one as a click.

*left the click here*

Vulnerable Moments, October 2010~~I've used this veil in pictures several times over the last 2 years. I love the way the fabric feels against my skin. I suppose the way it makes me feel to put it on my body is also what makes this picture one of my personal faves.

FYI~~I'm also very fond of the ribbons series I posted during the month of December. I thought they were pretty sexy if I do say so myself. Scroll down a little if you're interested in having a peek. muah!

Now go see Os, let folks know your post is up and check out the last hnt's of 2010. happy thursday!

New Year's images are always so sexy. Click the link below...NSFW. ;)

Special Christmas Wishes HNT

2010-12-22T21:18:00.005-04:00

Ahhhh Christmas wishes...just imagine how wonderful it would feel to give, give, give without reservation or concern for cost or logistics even. This week's theme is "Three Christmas Wishes". I've chosen 3 bloggers who I would like to bestow wishes and gifts to this holiday season.

Now, if I had a magic wand that actually worked, the first item of business would be to assist the Invisible Seductress in finding proper housing and a job with which to support her children. She's been having a hard go of things in this economy and I respect and understand how difficult it is as a single parent. No mother should have to struggle this much to be with her children. She also deserves some pampering. A full day at a spa complete with all the special perks. I would join her there and pop some bottles on the ice. :)

My second wish is for Nitebyrd. I would send plane tickets and invite she and her daughter *who is a breast cancer survivor* to come to here to my town, attend my Survivor's Reception, participate in the Relay for Life and celebrate together. How wonderful it would be to meet her and show her a bit of my world. She's a very special woman and I love her lots.

My last wish is for the one...the only... The Eternal List.
I absolutely adore this guy. We share common taste in music, which makes this wish really fun! He's not a huge fan of going out, so I wanna bring the party to him. Show up at his place looking all fly, packin' a dj sound system with all the latest and greatest tunes so we can dance the night away in his living room! We can party like rock stars shakin our groove thangs. Of course, booze and yummy food are essential this time of year, so we'd have the most delectable of treats. I hope you like to eat mister, cause I'm ready. How much fun would that be? I do so love to get my groove on, and now I'm wondering if he'll be able to keep up. hehehe

Whew, that was awesome. You know, I'm not feeling stressed this holiday season. I'm not racing around in a panic trying to figure out what to get. I'm at peace. I'm enjoying talking to loved ones and sharing in the excitement of this special time of year. It's going to be quiet without the boys, but they will be with me again by this time next week and then we will celebrate. Wishing you all the very best. I'm pleased to have so much time off because I'm totally gonna be making some blog rounds. I look forward to seeing bits of you all.

*this picture stands alone today*

Now go see Os and see what Christmas cheer he brings to us. happy thursday!

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Christmas Tree HNT ~ and more ribbons as well...

2010-12-15T21:49:00.001-04:00

As you know, my tree has been up for over a week now. This is my last week with the children until after Christmas. We are having turkey dinner this weekend. I've invited lil mama, her daughter (who is the same age as my young one) and dirtygirl to join us for the celebration. As planned, the boys are going away with their father and stepmother for a family Christmas this year. I had them extra time last year and I am well prepared. I've got plans and all, but today I found myself musing...how will it feel to be away from my own place too long? Do I want to be here for Christmas Eve, wake up and then go be social? hmmm...I'll figure it all out by the big day. I'm off by noon on Christmas Eve, work the Wednesday after Christmas, then off until January 4. Holy hell, that's some nice time off. Sunshine said on the phone last night that I should just sit back and seriously consider who I would most enjoy spending the time with and go with that instead of trying to do everything and be everywhere. I'm very blessed to have so many wonderful friends who want to be sure I'm not alone.

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Christmas cheer and wardrobe malfunctions

2010-12-12T12:28:00.010-04:00

It was a year ago today that by the twinkling lights, I had my first sexual encounter with the young dirty blond. When I wrote that story, it was difficult for the reader to know if it had actually happened or if it was a product of my own imaginings. I assure you, it was very real. I still recall very clearly how it felt to mount him, feel his girth inside me before releasing my orgasm all over him within the first five minutes. I knew right then and there that I was hooked. I would want to have him again, and again, and again...

Last night was our staff Christmas party. Whew, fastest year ever. An entire 365 days for real? My goodness, time flies when you're having fun. What began after that initial encounter was rather unexpected to me. I mean, it's all within my control who I choose to pass time with, but it became so much more. I saw him once a month on average between January and April of this year. I shared many of my inner thoughts and my blog link as well. This was both a good and bad choice in my opinion. It hadn't occurred to me that something I wrote about might upset him. I guess we didn't quite define the perimeters as well as we could have. We had one hurtle in late March where I was uncertain whether or not we could continue to see one another but we talked candidly about things and decided together that we didn't want things to end just yet. What began as monthly visits became weekly. I've been seeing him on average once a week since April.

So what, you may ask, does this mean for Autumn? It means that while I recognize it as temporary, it is a relationship of sorts. My feelings have grown. I find the words "i'm loving you right now" hovering on my lips, though I've kept it to myself. We didn't even have sex last night but spent almost an hour kissing and holding one another close. I felt so amazingly alive in that moment...so close to him. I don't want to force a situation where he feels he has to say it back to me if he does not mean it. Not because I can't bear him NOT to say it back...but because I care for him so much that I don't want to clutter his mind with too much emotion. What this says about me and this situation, I dunno, but it is what it is. I'm gonna ride it out and see what happens.

In other party news, I had three outfits laid out on the bed to choose from for last night's festivities. I ended up choosing a black cocktail dress with black stockings and shoes. I bought some stay-ups yesterday morning and slipped them on before the guests arrived here for the pre-party drinks.

*dirtygirl and autumn*

I ended up driving over to the bar with some passengers. As we were leaving, I had to stop four times just on the pedway to adjust my right stay-up. Goddamn things weren't doing their job! The boys got a flash of my thigh as I fiddled. I decided to come back inside and put on a garterbelt to hold them up. Ya know...I don't like those either. By the time we got back to my place, the whole belt was down around my hips. You can dress me up, but I can't guarentee I'll stay well put together. I kept hiding away to adjust myself. It's all about strutting it, right? ;)

I wound up with a pounding headache after dinner. I'm not sure what caused it, but I gathered up anyone that was coming home with me before 11:00pm. I'm such a party pooper! haha I don't think anyone really objected as one of my co-workers lives nearby and was having an afterparty. I couldn't handle the noise level of the band and all. Actually, I hadn't had a drink for a month or so, and I guess it just didn't agree with me last night. I took some tylonal and managed to stay up for a while once we got back. I've got several people pissed with me for leaving so early, but that's ok. I had a great night in the end, and that's all that matters. Dirtygirl was at her dirtiest once she'd had a few beer in her. She is all about 'slutting it up' as the guys put it. Talkin the talk about 'getting lucky' with her and all...goodness, what a shy girl she is without that liquid courage. *incidentally, she never actually does anything. she's the opposite of a dirty girl but it amuses me how her behavior changes with the drink*

All in all, it was a fabulous day and I'm pleased to feel rested and completely hangover free. My dirty blond stayed a while this morning and we continued our kissing tournament for a while. I feel so good today.

Top forty, sweetcheeks

2010-12-10T23:06:00.005-04:00

Yeah, I'm a 'Gleek'. I love it. I won't even lie. I discovered Glee at the beginning of the first season and have been watching since then.

I've loved Gwyneth Paltrow for many reasons, but something I particularly enjoyed is that she sang in a movie called "Duets" and I saw an interview where she discussed how intimidating it was. I thought that was pretty effin cool really, considering what a great lil singer she is.

Ribbons HNT

2010-12-08T21:10:00.006-04:00

I decorated my little artificial tree this past weekend with my children. I changed it up a bit this year with new lights and ribbon. I had some left over and put the pretty ribbon to good use here, then took it to work this morning to put on the Christmas Tree in the showroom. Dirty blond says he's quite sure he wouldn't be able to look at the tree without imagining these pictures and exactly where that ribbon has been. More to follow throughout the month...

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Feelin' so fly like a G6 HNT

2010-12-01T21:19:00.002-04:00

There are so many things I never wrote about between last spring and now. In the days leading up to my Relay for Life event (always in June), I really wanted to share so much but I was running around town like a maniac trying to prepare for my Survivor's Reception and all. I DO recall telling you that my co-bitch in charge was a serious bitch. She's not on the committee (for reasons of her own) this year and I've got a new lady who would like to help me. I've decided I won't call her a co-bitch until I've gotten to know her better. :) This coming year, we don't have the added concern of serving food outside in party tents. It will be lovely to have use of the banquet room close to the kitchen. *heaves a great sigh of relief*

Gonna toot my own horn a moment and tell you that even with all the glitches and crazyness...the reception kicked ass last year.

The team lil mama and I were on for the last four years (Team Bean) TOTALLY bailed on us. We had only four members out of a team of ten show up the night of. We decided to join her brother's team for 2011 relay and onward. We are now the Cancer Crusaders, and man, is this team organized! This past Saturday, we had our first fundraiser event. "Christmas with the Crusaders" was a great success. We had a turkey dinner followed by a silent auction and dance. The decor was lovely. I took a ton of pictures, which I've yet to get uploaded to my computer, I'm sad to report. I'll get to it soon. After paying for catering and the dj, we managed to raise a whopping $2,100! The team goal is $6,000, so we are well on our way.

Before leaving to attend the event, I did manage to take a few moments to capture my holiday outfit. I borrowed the shirt from a neighbour and plan to wear it for my work Christmas party being held next weekend. I have been a very busy girl with social events this fall. I'm having lots of fun. Any holiday parties in your future? If so, have fun and remember to arrange for transportation. Can't have anyone driving drunk now, hear?

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Hidden Images HNT

2010-11-24T20:22:00.000-04:00

I took the following pictures before I posted my Scar Tissue HNT two weeks ago. I didn't see anything particularly remarkable about them, but when I put them onto the computer screen I did see something interesting. I neglected to move an item before snapping the pictures. What do you notice here?

And to satisfy my own curiosity, what's your take on luv handles? Up for discussion.

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21 questions - it's just good fun

2010-11-15T20:28:00.001-04:00

1. Have you ever fantasized about someone of the same sex?
totally. doesn't mean i've always acted on this, but yes.

2. How do you feel about condoms?
condoms are a necessary evil. they aren't particularly comfortable for the man *so i've been told* and sometimes they are rather uncomfortable as they can slide off and all that business. clearly i'd rather not use them, but certainly will if it's right for that moment.

3. How important is sex to you on a scale of 1 to 100...
when i am in a relationship, i am MUCH happier in general if i have sex several times a week. i've always had a high libido. since i'm single, i settle for however often i can get it but would say it's on my mind perhaps 75-80 percent of the time. dirty girl...

4. How often do you masturbate?
there are times when i've masturbated several times a day and others when i've gone a week without. i tend to be indiscriminate about the time of month. sometimes i'm extra horny during girlie days and don't really care if it's messy or not when i want to cum.

5. When you fake an orgasm could you win an oscar?
I have not faked for a very very long time now, but am quite sure i could be nominated at the very least. i'm quite vocal.

6. Have you ever seduced someone?
yes, yes yes! i love doing that...so much fun!

7. Have you ever had a one night stand?
yes i have. made me think of that fella i took back to my place a couple of years back who couldn't manage to keep it up. it was so disappointing.

8. How do you feel about phone sex?
it can be fun.

9. Do you look at porn on the internet?
i have looked, but don't seek it out. i love looking at still pictures and sometimes girl/girl fun is exciting to watch. sexy

10. Would you pose naked in a magazine for 10,000 buck aroos!
it would depend on how it would effect my life that the lives of my children/family. i will say that it would be enticing for this single mama.

11. Have you ever tried Tantric Sex?
no, and i'm not entirely sure what it entails either.

12. Are you a sex initiator?
often i am, yes. if i want to have some sexy time i will make it happen.

13. Are you addicted to Sex?
hahaha! well, there have been moments when i've wondered why the hell i can't get it out of my head, but i wouldn't say i'm an addict. would i be unhappy without it? absolutely, but i would make it through somehow.

14. Sexiest part of a woman's body?
legs in heels and the spot where her back and the curve of her ass meet. so sexy.

15. Are you into bondage?
sometimes it's exciting in my mind, but it makes me nervous in reality. light stuff can be fun though.

16. Do you like to be tied up or be the tie-er upper?
i'd rather be the tie-er upper.

17. Longest sex session?
a day and half, pausing only for necessary breaks.

18. Naughty or nice?
definitely both, however, leaning more towards naughty.

19. Do you like to be spanked?
yes please. i really do.

20. Did you ever have sex in your parents bedroom?
No. definitely not. not ever in my bf's parent's bed either. ewww

21. How many toys do you own?
i've got 7 toys and a ton of lube. does my pink paddle count as a toy or other? haha

In Flanders Fields - Remberance Day Tribute

2010-11-11T13:58:00.003-04:00

In Flanders Fields
by John McCrae, May 1915

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

LEST WE FORGET...

Scar Tissue HNT

2010-11-10T19:17:00.007-04:00

I decided quite last minute to share these pictures. The first shows the stitches, and the next, the end result. Damn itch! Definitely should not have rubbed it when I did.

*click please*

This song doesn't go with my mood or the post, but I love it and thought of it *of course* when I chose my title.

Pop over to see Os mmmkay? happy thursday!

Take a look over here...

Slippery When Wet - Lube it up - Blogiversary Post

2010-11-04T11:28:00.008-03:00

Today is my second blogiversary! Now, I know when you click on my profile page it says February 2009, but that's when I switched from wordpress to blogger after winning the blog makeover. I'm writing and interacting a great deal less these days due to various things in life, but I am happy to have this place to share when the mood strikes. I've met so many incredible people online here who I would so love to meet for real. :)

It's that time of year again...getting so close to the most wonderful time of the year *Christmas*. I've recently been contacted by various adult toy companies and affiliates regarding advertising and reviews for the Christmas season. Sweet Brittany from TheirToys.com *click Sex Toys for the link* was kind enough to offer a free selection for review here on my blog. Nothing fancy, yet extremely practical and fun. LUBE...the imagination toy. ;)

Pink Water Based Lube

The colours, name and packaging alone would have made me pick it up in a store...for real. I love the pretty writing and the little turquoise cap that slips back on to protect the bottle from leaking if it lands on it's side (don't go lying and say that's never happened to you!). It comes in a 3.3oz/100ml bottle and is definitely in a competitive price range for a lubrication product. I'm quite a juicy girl in general, so you may wonder why I would need to rely on lube at all? It just makes everything flow even that much easier. I know women who don't use it, and even a couple who never ever have. To you I say 'Please try it. You might just find a whole new set of partner OR self pleasures with some additional wet.' Even letting it drip onto your body can be sexy sweet in my opinion.

My criteria for lube is as follows:

must not have a bitter taste, preferably no taste at all
must not be sticky
must keep me/him/us moist for longer than a couple of minutes
must aid in orgasm

This Pink Water Based Lube, found in the Lubes, Potions and Lotions section on the Theirtoys.com is really quite a nice product. I tested it out with a partner and found it very exciting to be honest. My current lover is quite well endowed and I find it very helpful to use lube if playing with my hands and/or mouth on him...you know for that matter, I've used it often for intercourse as well. That way it doesn't matter what crazy angle we wanna try...he just slides right in mmmhmm.

Gentlemen, this is a nice idea for a stocking stuffer for your lady, my word. Provided she likes lubes already, she will really enjoy this one.

~Autumn

I know it's a great deal to ask, since I suck major at commenting and all, but if you decide to comment on this post, please leave me your thoughts on this review for my own curiosity and so that sweet Brittany will know that you're paying attention as well. ;)

Seems I have some explaining to do about my stitches situation. I had a mole removed. No results yet, and quite frankly, I am much more upset about the scar that split than I am about a Cancer scare of any sort. Better safe than sorry. I will keep you posted.

Oh yeah, and YAY! I'm so excited to have another blogiversary here with all of you! I am such a lucky girl.

Touching HNT

2010-11-03T22:30:00.000-03:00

I adore his touches but have to say...doesn't it look almost as if the hand is unattached? Strange illusion there. A lovely post-Halloween treat.

I'm hoping I can lure you back later on as I've got a sexy post to write tomorrow. This week has gone far too quickly with physical inventory at work, parent/teacher meetings and getting my stitches removed. Ummm yeah,that part didn't work out so well for me. I rubbed the scar about 2 hours later and the skin separated some on the top layers. Maggie said she can't even use steri-strips to fix it. The scar will be wider, but horsewhisper and I joked at work today that I could just tell an elaborate tale about the bad ass chick fight "you should see the other girl. Damn bitch stabbed me in the back!" hahaha! I've got my boys here with me this week, but they are heading to their dad's for the weekend as I've got a Relay Summit to attend (taking them next weekend in exchange-busy busy). I'm *hoping* to have Saturday night to myself at least.

*clickity click*

Now go see Os please. happy thursday!

There are always sexy things going on over at the other spot. NSFW. ;)

Pumpkin Pie HNT

2010-10-27T22:00:00.003-03:00

I've never been a huge fan of Halloween as an adult. Not the girl who needs to find a party to showcase the perfect costume *though it would be fun*...then, perhaps I just don't run with crowds who have such parties. I love hearing, seeing and reading about costumes though. I guess my creativity doesn't really extend in that direction so I just don't try to come up with something cool. I live it vicariously through others and it's worked so far. Oooooo! I will tell you about one costume I had though. I went to work (where I still work) as Catwoman one year. I wore black pleather pants, a tight black shirt and bitch boots. My hair was very long. I wore it curly and flowing and tucked barrettes with cat ears in there. My ex husband *sighs...ok, so I will admit he has this ONE good quality* painted the most AWESOME Catwoman mask on my face. Complete with the white stitches on the edges. It was truly something to see. Wish I'd been taking pictures back then. I've thought about doing that one again but no longer have a painter around. Hmmm...

I DO love the vibrant colours of this season. All those bright orange pumpkins, multi-toned gourds and corn stalks. Don't even get me started on the gorgeous leaves. Yes, Autumn is a lovely season. And you know? It happens to be a pretty mild day here, so you won't even hear me bitch about how cold my ass cheeks are!

*pumpkin pie is yummy*

*roll your mouse over the picture please*

Now go see Osbasso cause he's the man. happy thursday!

I've contributed an "Os inspired" pic this time...whew, it got a little messy in here. NSFW. ;)

Throwing China Plates for release, and a hint of HNT

2010-10-21T09:29:00.009-03:00

Months ago, in the midst of a frustrating battle with my ex husband, the horsewhisper at work told me that there's a place where you can pay money to go into a concrete room and throw China plates at the wall...scream as loud as you want and just get all that frustration out. They will provide the plates and clean up after you. Doesn't that sound incredible? He had me somewhat convinced I *might* find such a place locally, but alas...I've found nothing online thus far. Check this out though! China was the first place to have a place for women to release frustration in this way. It's called the Women's Only Venting Store. Pretty sweet hey? They get to smash electronics as well. And I found another called "Sarah's Smash Shack" (I'd go there just for the name) located in San Diego.

I'm actually going somewhere with all this. I've been feeling overwhelmed lately. It all started last spring when my ex husband abruptly told me that he wanted to sue and take the children all the time. *adding of course that I wouldn't have to pay him anything...pfft* Obviously there are major trust issues between us. Bottom line is this: We have been living apart for over six years and yet he still expects me to abide by his rules with regard to daily living at both homes. He doesn't like the way I discipline, he doesn't think I make them do enough chores, and he feels they would be better off with him. Hmmmm...nothing in there about all the love, support and nurturing I provide. Nothing about how he knows fuck all about how we interact and is going by random comments with the boys rather than manning up and speaking to me about anything. He and his wife speak to me in condescending tones on a regular basis. I've been struggling very much privately. I've not felt like sharing these things because I hate when I'm being negative. I don't allow them to take away the fact that I am a good parent, while I don't live exactly the same way as them. If I ask the boys to do things, I expect them done. Simple. I don't have a chart...things come up and they are asked as I require them. How does this constitute bad mothering?

I had a rather nasty blow-out on the telephone with their step-mother last night. Some was good, much bad. I'm exhausted from having to defend myself alone all the time. There are times when I truly wish I had an active partner who would just be on my side, you know? Not to fight my battles, but to support me. I have people in my life who I turn to in times of distress. I'm blessed to have special friends who love me.

I want to THROW A HUNDRED PLATES!!! I want to CURSE AND SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS!!! God, what release that would offer right about now. In honestly, what I'd really like to do is throw my first through the god damned phone every time he speaks to me with condescension...like I am a lesser person. I mean seriously...

There has been a serious ongoing issue with regards to first born and school. These things are weighing heavily on my mind, yet I function normally through that and offer a listening ear when my son needs me. So far, his father hasn't seen any need to ask first born how HE'S feeling about all the change. This is both upsetting and discouraging. Fuck...I'm sharing way lots of stuff today here. Heavy...state at the moment. Ex husband and I need to meet in a neutral spot to discuss things thoroughly. Seriously...this needs to happen.

In other areas, the Gluten Free diet is going as well as can be expected. I'm got my head in the sand a bit about trying new recipes, but I'm eating what I am allowed and will get into the groove of things over the months to come. I am having a "peculiar (so says the doctor) mole* removed on Monday afternoon. She said 'peculiar' four times, and the "C" word twice. Apparently this is typical procedure. I should find out soon enough I would say. And on the adult acne? She's recommending Acutane. She's trying one thing first, but thinks that the scarring on my face is deep enough that I need to fix it properly. I've got a lot to think about this week.

Gawd...that didn't even cover all that's been happening, but you get the idea. I'm feeling blue. Struggling to find my happy again (though I have many many moments of it) and am working very hard at living day by day and taking pleasure in small things that come my way and make me smile.

It's unfortunate I hold onto things so deeply. It's something in me that I really struggle with. The situation with custody arrangement is not likely to change until the boys are grown. It is my lot in life to deal with him even though it causes me such strife at times. *sighs*

sorry for the pity party...just trying to explain how I feel today.

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I took a few pictures on Saturday night when the young dirty blond was here. I think they are quite lovely. Today, I'll give you just a hint, mmmkay?

*no clicky today, see me next week*

Osbasso's created this whole thing, so go show him the props. happy thursday!

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I think I need new yoga pants...you be the judge

2010-10-18T21:00:00.004-03:00

Ok, so I have a serious little hoarding thing going on. I don't know why, but it kills me to throw out a comfortable pair of pants. I'm lying...I know why. I love them and haven't found an appropriate replacement yet. These pants are like dear friend. Maggie is gonna call me about this I'm certain. She's threatened to come over and just start bagging shit up.

I believe these pants should have been trashed some time ago, and yet I keep washing them and putting them back. They sneak on once in a while...I actually left the house with these on tonight *longer sweater and coat of course*...what's wrong with me?!

Queen of my castle HNT

2010-10-14T00:01:00.006-03:00

As Queen of my castle, I have the pleasure of spending my life raising 2 intelligent and entertaining young princes.

My first born prince is 13 years old today. A teenager...how the hell did that happen? Obviously, I can account for each and every year, month and week that he is, in fact that old. Isn't it odd how he keeps getting older while I seem to be staying the same age? hehehe

My labour was very long. It lasted 48 hours and we were living about a 35 minute drive via highway to the hospital IN A JEEP YJ! I was scheduled to be induced (several days overdue) on October 14 but arrived 2 nights before for the first visit. My contractions were very sporadic...sometimes 7-10 minutes apart, and sometimes less than 3. They sent me home. Nasty bitches...

I arrived Monday night to have my cervix prepared for the induction on Tuesday morning. The nurse told me they didn't need to do anything because I was already in labour. No shit lady! It had already been 24 hours. And they sent me packing again. Rrrrrr...

Just before midnight on Monday I was chatting with a friend on the phone while enduring contractions. She kept saying "Autumn...go to the hospital right now." and I kept saying "but they keep sending me back home and I can't do more than one more trip in the bumpy jeep like this." We stayed on the phone for about 20 minutes, or until she had be convinced to get going. So off we went, baby daddy and I for another trek...

When I arrived I told them under NO UNCERTAIN TERMS that I was NOT going home again. I was scheduled in a few hours anyhow. Find me a room bitches! Of course, I was much nicer really. :) Baby daddy decided to sleep while I roamed the halls and took a bath. I was intent on having natural birth with no drugs *well...I did suck on that laughing gas quite a bit later on* and was willing to endure this. At about 9am on Tuesday my doctor arrived. He was pleased with my natural progress and proceeded to break my water. He expected to be back around noon to help with delivery. Contractions got even harder to deal with.

My body wouldn't dilate past 8cm. Nope. That's it that's all. I was told I *might* want to consider the possibility of a Cesarean section. My poor baby had no more cushion and was trying so hard to get the heck out of there (although I always told first born while recounting this - he was just cozy and warm in there, wanting to come out but maybe not just yet). His heart rate dropped and I had to lay still on the bed while they monitored him through me. I had to stay as still as possible for about an hour and a half. Longest 90 minutes EVER. I was literally begging for an ice chip. Nasty bitches...

At about 4pm, another doctor came to give me an epidural. Sweet lord what relief! And what exactly was I trying to prove not having any meds? Let's just say I was feeling more comfortable for the first time in many long hours. Busy night in the O.R. meant a bit of a wait for me. My beautiful, healthy first born son was born at 7:46pm. Blessed are we to know him.

While I'm very close with both my boys, there is something special about the way first born and I communicate. He's defiant and stubborn, confident and ambitious. He's gonna make me a proud mama. My baby is growing up right before my eyes. I'm just going to enjoy every moment that I've got.

*sexy mama*

*mother and son*

Osbasso's place is where it's at. happy thursday!

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Chasing Cars

2010-10-09T23:07:00.005-03:00

I happened to hear this song while driving home from the family cottage over Labour Day weekend and have been thinking about it on and off since. It's funny cause I've heard it many times and each time...it moves me yet I had no idea what it was called or who sang it. My first born (clever boy that he is) said "Just google the lyrics you know and see what comes up." Then he layed on the wooden stairs upside down peeking through them until I found what I was seeking. Lyrics have meaning to me. While certainly not all songs are applicable to my personal life, I can relate to some element of many. This one especially so because everyone needs/desires companionship. I've been in a strange head space lately. This song rather expresses how I feel about sharing time with my current lover. I have a tidy little compartment in my mind for all of my feelings towards him. The huge age gap prevents it from being something progressive as relationships go, but we have an amazing connection of thought between us. I think it's partly because he's not jaded by women yet. He's open and honest about himself. Confidence is a wonderful thing. It's working for me just now. I'm fully in control of this situation.

I've posted very sparsely for some time now and when I do post, it seems to be somehow connected to the dirty blond. I have many other things happening, but I suppose of all of those, this is the thing in my private life (when the boys are at their dad's) that makes me feel most calm and happy. Unpleasantness also arises from time to time in other aspects of my life, but it will pass. My smile is big as I listen to this song again. Isn't it pretty? Come on...don't tell me you don't like it!

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Vulnerable Moments HNT

2010-10-06T21:54:00.005-03:00

So, this is breast cancer awareness month and you know what that means...boobie-thon time! yay boobies! I meant to send some pictures a while back and have gotten so caught up in real life stuff (it's gotten a bit heavy over here, but still smiling) that I forgot. Thank goodness Osbasso is such a sweetie and reminded me to send some along.

After spending two nights romping with my young lover, I was still craving more on Sunday. Greedy bitch, yep. I know.

I knew I was going to re-acquaint myself with a toy or two, so I got my stash out and was ready to go. I love the feeling of soft fabric on my skin, so I tied on the veil. I changed my room around so now my dresser (complete with large mirror) sits across from my bed. I'm such a smartypants. ;) When I looked into the mirror, I thought how nice it looked and had to get my camera. Turned out to be a fairly productive little session really. At least I was able to rest well when I was done.

These pictures are rather grainy, but I like the way the turned out.

*click for a bit more*

Hit up Osbasso's place to check out more half nekkid fun and let folks know you're up. happy thursday!

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The Sexy Bitch's Red High Heels HNT

2010-09-29T21:19:00.000-03:00

During the time they have spent together as lovers, she knows that her young dirty blond LOVES high heels and dirty talk. Preferably a combination of the two. It is with this in mind that she makes an impulsive purchase while out shopping. When he arrives for their next rendez-vous, she is ready. Dressed in a soft, clingy nightie and new red heels, she has been craving his touch. He admires her openly...the corners of his mouth turning to a grin. He likes this ensemble. mmm hmm

They sit on the couch and talk a moment, then he leans in to kiss her full on the mouth...bringing his hands up to tug her hair softly as he does so. He cannot help but draw her closer and inhale her fragrance. He groans softly as she mounts him over his clothes, teasing him by softly moving her hips on his manhood. Together the savour these kisses, this moment of such close physical proximity. There is no real sense of urgency (except their desire) as they've got time to enjoy and explore one another fully.

With gentle yet firm hands, he removes her from his lap and lays her down to taste her. He reaches under her nightie to relieve this sexy bitch of cumbersome panties, sliding them gently down her thighs and further to her toes. He lifts the panties to his face quite unabashedly and inhales her natural scent before devouring her pussy right there on the couch. He discovers it's already wet, so inviting and warm.

Her moans begin softly and raise in volume and intensity as he brings her closer...ever closer to orgasm. She talks to him, gently guides him to what feels best in that moment. He alternates between licking and sucking to fingering and kissing her tits, up to her lips as she tells him how good she feels, how much she's loving his touch. She cums, and cums again and again.

He guides her to the floor and then begins to remove his clothing. She finds mouth watering to look at his gorgeous form...he hard cock ready to take her NOW! He lifts her legs to his shoulders and mounts her. She gasps at that first thrust, and the second...and third. As is often the case with the dirty blond, she marvels at his stamina and at their sexual chemistry, rhythm so in sync. Her shoes dig lightly into his shoulders, on his back, around his waist and down to his ass as he shifts her legs periodically...finding the position that does it...the one that brings him to climax. Ahhhhh *sated for the moment, they rise to go to the kitchen for water, where our tale continues*

She leans casually with her back against the counter as they take a drink and chat. They gaze a moment, and he's close...roaming hands on her thighs, grasping at her hair and kissing her deeply. She grabs his cock and strokes, leans down to suck that big cock...he plays with her pussy, pumping until her ejaculation runs down her legs, seeping into those red high heels. He turns her around and leans her over the counter, wanting nothing more than to take her. She grasps firmly to something solid and simply enjoys. She feels every ridge of him as he fills her to capacity. She describes it all to him between cries of passion.

As she tells him these things, she finds herself thinking other words, most passionate words. She bites her tongue. She's having the time of her life...

*click for his clothes*

Now go see Osbasso. happy thursday!

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ATTENTION ALL MASTURBATORS! FREE TOY GIVE-AWAY

2010-09-14T11:16:00.004-03:00

The fine folks over at Luxotiq are running a free dildo contest! Now, we all love our sex toys...don't even lie! What they are doing is offering FIVE free toys, and an additional toy for the friend of each winner! How cool is that?!

Be sure to head over HERE and sign up for that contest today. The draw will be made on September 30, 2010...so there's still time.

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There has been so much stuff going on around here, I've barely used the computer. The boys went to their father's yesterday, and my best friend and cousin Sunshine arrived to stay the week on Sunday night and will be here until Friday. We just spent Labour Day weekend together also and this really is such a treat for us! We generally see one another perhaps two or three times a year, though we speak on the phone quite frequently. This weekend I have a Cancer Society seminar. It's hard to believe we're already starting the prep work for Relay next June. My co-bitch decided to do Relay in another district this year and will not be on the committee. Awww...damn *she says with great sarcasm*. :)

I'm not sure if I will have a chance to post everything this week. So much rolling around in my head to be honest. Please forgive me while I gather my thoughts into coherent posts.

Heat Wave HNT - a little back-tracking here

2010-09-09T11:34:00.004-03:00

So, as you can see, I'm a bit behind here. My weekend away was absolutely DELIGHTFUL and deserves a post of it's own complete with pictures I should think. The weekend before that, I also went to a campout/bbq with co-workers. Also fun, also deserving of it's own post. *Sighs* So much to do, so little computer time! Now that we're approaching the end of the first full week of school, I should find a bit more balance in the routine over the next couple of weeks. All the back to school things for the boys, coupled with my Celiac diet, I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed. It makes me shy away at times. I've gotten so much information on Celiac, I've really got to take more time to sift through it all. It's been three weeks and I'm doing very well. I feel more energetic and healthy already. I'd say by Christmas time I will have figured out all the good recipes and more interesting ways to cook for my family as well.

The night before I left for vacation last week, (wednesday night, that is) I spent the evening with dirty blond. I don't know what the weather was like in your neck of the woods, but here it was about a million degrees. *actually more like 36-38 degrees celsius, but might as well have been a million* I had the fans going so we wouldn't get overheated with all the vigorous sexual activities, so it was all good. I wore that dress to work and took the pictures while I was home for lunch. Dirty blond sent me a bb message saying that he couldn't wait to touch my ass in that dress. Lovely words that made me instantly wet and left me wanting him so badly. Mmmmm just the thought of it now has got me stirring...

*click another view*

Be sure to see Osbasso. happy thursday!

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Peaceful Place HNT

2010-09-02T01:01:00.001-03:00

I'm leaving tonight for vacation to the most peaceful place on earth for me...I'll be back next week.

xoxo
loves autumn

*click for fun*

*click for the happy*

Don't forget to go see Osbasso. happy thursday!

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Misty confessions of a quirky girl

2010-08-30T17:36:00.006-03:00

I hate bras. Yes, they're pretty, but they are not comfortable. As soon as I can, I whip that puppy off. I bring it up because two different people have broached the "lack of bra" subject. It's fucking hot outside, and even without a bra, my boobies stay rather controlled in my shirts. Therefore, I generally go braless when I'm not working.

This past weekend, we had a company bbq and campout hosted by the hustler (a co-worker of mine). On sunday morning, I got up and threw on a pair of shorts and a white cami. No bra. This morning at work, our delivery driver said "you know that shirt you wore on Sunday? that was a bad idea. you could almost see your ummm..." I smiled, and said "oh god, that's just the weekend Autumn. i go out to the coffee shop like that too, if it makes you feel any better."

I am song/show obsessed. I recently purchased the new Eminem cd and I've listened to Love the Way You Lie about a gazillion times in a row. Who else is listening? And? I adore HBO and Showtime. I've watched the first two seasons of both Nurse Jackie and The United States of Tara at least three times over this spring and summer. Ummm...yeah...

I like kissing girls and touching boobies. Yeah, I said it. Trust me, I'm not keeping anything from you. The last time that happened was in August of 2008, and if you've been here a while, you know how that little story ended. This does not mean that I have any desire to have an ongoing relationship with a woman. Nope. I love cock. Always have...always will. I just embrace my sensual side and will take opportunities that present themselves. I told Maggie "well, I've only been with ummm...four women" She thinks I'm a nut, but loves me anyhow. She even let me shake her boobie once. Now that's a friend. I've grabbed Dirtygirl's a time or two as well. *blush* naw...not really blushing. I am who I am and accept it.

You Rock! HNT

2010-08-26T00:27:00.002-03:00

So, I just took these pictures half an hour ago. I've been trying for days, but the boys are here and it's approaching the end of summer...they are staying up a bit later before school starts next Thursday. *sighs* That's the first day of my vacation. I took those days just before Labour Day so that we could travel to my peaceful place for a few days. I booked this time back in April, without realizing that school starts BEFORE the holiday this year. BOO! BOO! I think I'll have them go on the first day but send notes telling their teachers that I will be taking them out of town on the second day. We wait for this. It's important.

Now that we've gotten our priorities straight, onto other business. If you read the post below, you'll see that there are some major changes going on. Due to a Celiac diagnosis, I am now on a completely gluten free diet. As Beryl pointed out in her comment...this will very likely improve my figure. There's always a positive side to be found. I've been a cranky pants all week because I'm hungry. I'm so used to my delicious bready goodness that I'm going slightly crazy. Don't worry...it's temporary and will improve with a little money and some shopping.

You guys...I got such an outpouring of support from that post and I want to say THANK YOU. You left such lovely comments and emails with very helpful links, advice, and recipe ideas. I am so blessed. I know this will work out. It's been six days with the B12 vitamins also. Os will be posting his hnt in just fifteen minutes and I am actually awake! Well...I'll suffer a little in the morning but I will be ok. I look forward to replenishing all of my baking needs and making some bread. My friend offered me a free breadmaker. Woot woot Lucky girl I am! People are so very sweet. I'm going to work extra hard on putting my big girl panties on and dealing with more grace. :)

Hey you! Yep, that's right...YOU. Thank you. It's so nice to have the help in overwhelming moments.

Head over and let folks know your post is up at Osbasso's place. happy thursday!

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Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

2010-08-22T11:36:00.005-03:00

Cause I could really use a wish right now...

Blood work results are in. I had ten vials of blood taken. Everything from thyroid to HIV. I went for tests because I've been feeling consistently sleepy for three months or so. On a high note, I am completely STD free *not a surprise at all, but good to know for certain* and that's DAMN sexy in my opinion.

One test did get a positive result though. It turns out I have something called Celiac Disease. I'd never heard of it before Thursday. While on the phone with Sunshine that night, we looked it up and read together in preparation for my visit to the doctor.

If you've never heard of it either, it seems akin to Chrone's, yet not so severe. It effects the small intestine. Certain foods (namely wheat, rye and other grains) don't become absorbed into my body for nutrition, but are passed through leaving my body in need of more. My B12 is very low and it seems that's been the cause of my fatigue. I haven't had a couple of the most obvious symptoms, so I hadn't realized there was an issue. Bloating is a symptom though and I get that for sure. I've been bitching to myself about my little pot belly that's been causing havoc with my dresspants. I blamed it on the beer and told myself to lay off and perhaps I can take that pound or two back off. Turns out, it really IS the beer. And the bagel I have for breakfast every day, and the rye I drink with Maggie, and the raisin toast or bowl of cereal I have for my evening snack. I've got to do a complete overhaul in the kitchen.

In order to be healthy again, I have to go on a gluten free diet. WOW! Hmmmm...I'm not sure if I've said this lately, but I am NOT a fan of change. I know it's good and respect it's the only choice I can make but I'm not happy about this. I'm going to be giving up many things that I truly love to eat and drink. I will have to incorporate some of my needs into the children's diet as well. And really, it's not a bad thing, just a big change. I've been feeling a bit sorry for myself this weekend honestly. My cousin and her husband came to visit on Friday night. They stayed over and I helped her get ready for a party they were heading to yesterday. It kept me occupied and we had completely gluten free meals that were filling and delicious. MMMM...scallops.

My grocery bills will go up, but it's time to focus on physical health. I don't want to ignore advice or take chances with my body, so changes are a comin' whether I like it or not. I've taken a little time to wallow in the very idea that I can't have beer either. Goddamn that's a bummer. I'll have it all worked out over the next month and a bit I'm sure. I will have to start right away, of course but it will take time to gather a variety of recipes to replace all my yummy baked good ones and also some creative meals and substitutes. I'm so pleased at how calm I am. If I had gotten this news even a year or two ago, it would have sent me into a panic attack I'm sure. I'm so glad to be thinking clearly and figuring everything out step by step.

His Clothes HNT

2010-08-18T22:39:00.001-03:00

After our camping trip almost two weeks ago, I ended up coming home with dirty blond's tank top in my bag. How did THAT happen? Oops, I swear it wasn't intentional, but mmmmm do I love putting on something that's been worn by a lover. He's a big fan of boxer shorts. I really wanted to see his sweet ass in a boxer brief, so I bought him some. I was not disappointed. They're here at my place. Is it wrong that I want to romp around the house in his undies? Ah well...I'm gonna go with what I want to do anyhow, so the answer doesn't much matter.

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Misty confessions of dating and such

2010-08-16T11:24:00.005-03:00

You know this is the first time I've had my PC on for more than a few minutes in 3 days! WOW

I've been keeping ALL KINDS of little secrets! I didn't even write about my dates this spring.

In two weeks time, it will mark the second anniversary of my single womanhood. For a long time, I simply hid out at home. I socialized with select people only, and mostly in my home. Honestly, for the first time ever, I felt shaken and very jaded from that experience and just couldn't bare to deal with any more relationship bullshit for a while. Not to mention how important it was for me to get my head on straight and learn to know my worth before diving head-on into anything new.

That being said, I did go out on one date in February of 2009, then no more for another year and more...

Now, while I am single, I have had lovers *friends i've already known as opposed to people i've just met*. It's kept me entertained and I've been able to avoid any emotional entanglements thus far *until quite recently, that is, though this has set boundaries and i am thinking clearly* and am quite liking my personal freedom of movement. It's not the same having a lover as it is having a progressive-somdaymeetthekids- type thing. I'm still not ready to open myself up to all of that yet. *sighs*

OK, so as many blogger chatty-chat friends have pointed out, I'm an attractive lady with plenty to offer, so..."don't men ask you out?"

The answer is yes, but not as often as you might think. Really, outside of work and home, I don't go to many public places where I would meet people. I've been getting out much more as of late, and it turns out, people DO notice me. go figure :)

First date ~~ April (Good Friday, actually)

We'll call him the Aussie. A long time customer at work. He's a hard working man who is well traveled, intelligent, laid back and very interesting. I'd say he's in his early 50's, though I've never asked him specifically because I felt it might be rude. He's been divorced for a couple of years now and during a conversation about single life and dating, he asked if I would like to go to dinner with him sometime. He picked me up and we went to find a good place to have a steak. mmmm...steak...now I'm hungry.

We had wonderful conversation, a couple of drinks and a lovely meal. The plan was to eat, then walk around and find a place to listen to a band play. We didn't do the second part, mostly cause it was a drizzly evening and I didn't want to walk around, make my hair all fuzzy, then sit out all night. Yeah, I'm vain. So what?

I suppose some of it had to do with simply being OUT. I hadn't done it for some time, and I just felt this sort of 'lost' feeling and wanted to go home. I invited him in but had no intention of having sex with him. Was that unfair? Did I lead him on? I know I didn't do anything suggestive in body motion or words. He seemed comfortable. We sat and talked for quite a while. At one point, he left the room for a moment. When he came back in, it struck me how very old he looked in my eyes. His eyes reminded me strongly of my own father's eyes. Creepy...

And then it happened. He kissed me. It wasn't a bad kiss. I know he's strong and fit and yet I simply had no physical attraction to him. We stopped kissing, but he kept leaning in randomly to kiss me again. Then he said it..."I want to make love to you." What? Huh? Oh no, not tonight. Nuh uh.

Can't help how I feel, right? We didn't go on a second date but we do see one another occasionally at work. It's all good.

Second date ~~ June

This one was a lot easier. A guy I dated back in 1991 messaged me on the facebook and asked if I'd like to go to dinner and catch up on life in general. We emailed back and forth a bit just filling in the long gaps. He and his wife had split and he's now raising his 14 year old daughter entirely on his own. *kuddos*

Whew, he's put on the pounds over the years. I'm not judging, just sayin is all. It was cool to talk to him and just laugh together about old times and so much more. When we were on route to the Japanese place I'd chosen, his daughter called to say that she'd fallen and hurt her arm. He calmly talked her down and said he'd call her when we got to the restaurant. Meanwhile, he spoke to the adult that was there when she fell to get an idea how bad it was. Once he knew for sure it wasn't emergency room worthy we'd taken our seat and he called to see how she was. She called several times during our dinner. He kept apologising. Honestly, I don't think this was a caddy teen looking for attention. I think she really hurt her arm and wanted her daddy. It was endearing listening to him speak to her. I've always known he was a sweet man and nothing's changed there at all.

Once dinner was done he took me home. I told him to go be with his daughter and not to worry at all because I understood. I really did. I really do. I'd feel the same if it were one of my boys calling. He understands my aversion to becoming involved overly. He told me it would be great to get together again sometime just for fun. I haven't spoken to him in a while. Relay was going on, then summer (which has been so busy) and I've just not done it.

~~~~~

When I was out getting my tattoo done a couple of weeks ago, a very broad muscle man with tons of cool tattoos gave me his phone number. He said "I don't know if you have a man, if you're married or whatever, but I just really want to give you my number anyway." ummm...flattering. Sometimes I don't know how to take that stuff though. Is it all about looks? Do men see past that right at first? Gives me pause...

Way back when, I told ya'll that we had a really hot guy who comes into the office once a month to take our power meter reading. I was all set to give him my phone number and have missed him for the last 3 months running. Maybe next week I'll be there when he stops in.

There's also a man I see at my coffee shop every morning. He's been going there for about 3 years now. The difference is that I found out he is no longer with wife. Interesting. I've had a mild crush/interest in him for over a year but have just never done anything about it. When I found out he was single, I did say hello one time. It's turned into a hello and a wave (big smile also) every day. I look forward to it, but am in no rush to make things happen right now. I know he needs time to heal and I won't even touch that. He asked me my name, and I got his. All I know is that he has a daughter, he's a hard worker *since he's working at his table every day* and that he much prefers a bench seat to a chair. It's a start. I'm enjoying the lightness of it.

There you have it. :)

I've been somewhat preoccupied with the dirty blond as of late. I like it. We went camping even. That's out, right? *grins* I don't want to stop yet. *stomps foot*

Jiggle Jiggle HNT

2010-08-12T00:01:00.004-03:00

Holy hell, is it really Thursday already? Whew, how did that happen?

I just said jiggle jiggle tehehe...

I'm wearing a belly dancing wrap here. I love the beadwork and the wonderful sound the coins make when I move my hips about. *sighs*

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Misty confessions of greed and sloth

2010-08-09T11:20:00.005-03:00

I just had the most incredible "ME" weekend. It's rather rare to have a weekend where there are really NO obligations, you know? This one was all about fun.

On Friday night, I was invited to a bbq over at Maggie's place. She asked if I would like to take the dirty blond with me. I was a bit surprised when he said yes as we were scheduled to go camping on Saturday and I figured he'd like a night to do something with friends. Apparently, he preferred to spend it with me this time. Awwww...lucky me.

He drove so I could have some sip-sips with Maggie. He also bbq'd the food. Let's just say she was quite impressed with him. Later while emailing me some pictures, she commented that it's too bad he wasn't born in the 70's as it would make my situation considerably less complex. I have to agree with her there.

Know what I'm so greedy for?

ORAL

Yeah, you read that correctly. I mean, really...who isn't a fan? tehehe

When we got back to my place, we didn't even make it further than the couch before our clothes were being removed and we got down to business. Let me just say OH MY GOD it was amazing.

God forbid anything bad should happen to me and the CSI crew arrived to collect bodily fluids...cause I'm telling you they're everywhere. On the chair, couch, floor, my bed and so on. All the right ingredients...a little bit of booze, a gorgeous man touching me, and in all the right places I might add. MMM MMM good. When I cum, I ejaculate as well. It's clear liquid. Sometimes it seeps, and sometimes it expels from me like a faucet. The latter was how it went that night...and the next day...and the next. *friday night was extra special in for it*

1 wet blanket and 2 soaking couch cushins = 1 completely satisfied woman

And now I want more and more and more. Hence GREED.

I'm a pretty busy lady. I've always got something that needs to get done. For instance, I was supposed to go and have blood work done on Saturday morning. I assessed the weekend plans and decided to put it ahead to next weekend as I'd been drinking on Friday night and didn't want that to effect the tests. Don't worry, I'm not ill, just the regular full blood check to make sure everything is as it should be.

After the bbq on Friday, *plus the private after party* it wasn't even half done. We woke at a reasonable time but lingered in bed for a little while. *sighs* I love lazy Saturday mornings! By noon, we were on our way to his place to get the camping equipment. Do you know I didn't even have to cook all weekend? He made some lunch and we headed out to the campground. We set everything up and started playing washers. I was a bit rusty so there was lots of practice first. I don't think he minded since I had to bend over to pick up the washers. ;)

Later on we had a bite to eat and went back to the washers. I haven't had such a nice time in I don't remember how long. I mean, I'm not really comparing it to anything in particular, but it was an especially relaxing weekend. I must say, it was nice to be with him someplace else. I enjoyed being affectionate at our campsite and holding his hand when we walked around. I felt light of heart and content. This guy is also a pro with bonfire maintenance. We had a lovely time roasting marshmallows and talking in the dark.

Because this was the dirty blond's first camping trip with a lady friend, *ahem...and I find him quite irresistible* I felt compelled to straddle him on his chair right there by the fire light. I got a little frenzied and slipped one pant leg off so I could free my body for him. The results were electric, but then it seemed like too many people were driving past...didn't really want someone walking right up on us or anything, so we took it in the tent. Sexy fun tent sex, what could be better?

I think I'm on a sex high EVEN NOW!

This weekend was mine and now the boys are back home. I had done all the basic things in preparation earlier in the week (groceries, laundry, whatevs). I'm really glad I was out of my place most of the time because when I'm here and lounging, I always feel as if there's something more productive I should be working on. Makes me feel like I'm being a big lazy-bones.

When I got back home around noonish on Sunday, I didn't feel like doing much of anything. I debated logging onto blogger to write this post, but I was just too lazy. Too relaxed to even make the effort. I took a nap *had a strange dream about dirtygirl calling me saying she was reading my blog btw*.

I want more and more and more...Hence SLOTH

I feel so recharged and ready for a busy week with my boys. I'll have to wait a week for more greed and sloth. I'm always up for it in moderation, of course.

NEW INK HNT

2010-08-04T21:30:00.001-03:00

This butterfly was scanned from a letter that my mother wrote in 1982. That "A" is in her own script. I couldn't be happier to have this beautiful art on my body. I just got it today.

As always, go say hello to Osbasso please. happy thursday!

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Misty confessions of a secret love affair

2010-08-02T22:30:00.000-03:00

I'm still reading Eat Pray Love. I'm quite sure if I'd devoted more time, I'd be through it by now but summer lives on around me. I took some time yesterday to sit in the sun and read again. I am truly savouring this book. I've just finished the second set of stories as she visits India. She meets people from all over the world who have also come there to explore their individual spirituality. She speaks about her personal journey with brooding, which I found very interesting. At one point, she expresses deep sadness to her friend *Richard from Texas* regarding the end of a relationship she both loved and hated. I'm going to just write out what he told her because it really struck me. I read it over several times...

Regarding soul mates: "Your problem is you don't understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave."

I really believe this. I always try to find something positive in each interaction I have with people in my life. I believe they've come into it for a reason.

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It's only for a season...

This is what I tell my friends in reference to the dirty blond. It's not that I wish for him to go anywhere, but I recognise the situation for exactly what it is. I'm a very practical woman and I make decisions based on what is right for me and my children, of course. While he brings something very positive to my personal life, we will not progress to a stage where he meets my children as a potential mate. Well, I suppose some could argue that one never knows what the future holds, but let's just go with this, shall we?

I've been thinking about writing about this lately. A recent online conversation with the ever sexy topaz prompted me to share. She found the way I described the situation quite amusing. I've veered from the comical here for a few, we'll get to that.

These are the facts:

*The dirty blond goes to university, but works for my company full time during the summer, and once or twice a week while classes are in. We don't work side by side at all. There is a drastic age difference. I do not mind this in the least, however, this man wants to have children of his own in the future. I cannot provide this for him. HE DESERVES TO HAVE THIS IN HIS LIFE. I would also like to refrain from giving his poor mother a heart attack as we (she and I) are not so far apart in age.

He wants to experience his years of education without the added concern of a serious relationship. He is then able to focus his attentions on his work while still having a little fun when he's got a free night. He is quite comfortable exploring his personal sexuality with a woman who he finds both attractive and intelligent.

*I have previously dated (and had relationships with) two men from work. I've been there for ten years, and have been separated/divorced from ex hus for over six years now. These relationships did cause a bit of discord for me at work when a woman *who I call THE TROLL* started telling new staff that I was a slut. That's a post in itself, but understand while I don't give a fuck what she thinks, I am a sensitive woman and simply don't want the drama in my life. My private life then, is just that. Very private.

*Dirtygirl *my coworker and sweet female friend* has a MAD crush on the dirty blond. I mean, she told me just a couple of weeks ago that she's "sooooo in love with him". Ouch. I believe she's in love with the idea of him in truth. About a year and a half ago, they started hanging out once in a while. I was excited for her because it's been a very long time since she's had a potential love interest. They went jogging, to the movies, and hung out at dirtygirl's place sometimes. At the time, she was uncertain how she felt although she loved the attention. She's very awkward with men and has esteem issues that are restricting her from the comforts of seeking out a relationship of any sort. I call her dirtygirl mostly because she's silly, likes to flirt and show off her boobies while drunk, not because she's actually a dirty girl.

But here's the thing...

That didn't work out last winter/spring for them. Nothing came of it, and for months she said nothing about wanting him or anything. It's just resurfaced as her birthday approached and she's feeling a little blue and lonely.

This begs the question...

DID I STEAL DIRTYGIRL'S MAN? Did I break a friendship vow? I've spoken in depth to the dirty blond on this subject. He assures me that there was nothing there. I know from my own perspective, I don't feel like I've taken anything from her because it was never hers to take. Certainly it limits some of our conversations topics, but doesn't cause any particular disruption. I do feel badly on occasion because I know how much it would hurt her if she knew. Mostly, I don't like the idea that it would cause her to feel badly or unworthy of having that, you know? I want to protect her yet still have what I crave and enjoy.

And for all of these reasons, we keep it on the low-down, can ya dig it?

Funny things happen all the time. Things that make me smile privately because I have found a wonderful treasure of a lover in this man, and it's our little secret. I mean, some of my friends know, and some of his as well. It's not like we are hiding from jealous spouses or anything like that, it's just that the easiest and most convenient way for us to spend time is to do it at my place. He enjoys it here. Says he feels very relaxed in my home. I think that's lovely.

And now back to the amusing part (if you've not already been sufficiently entertained, that is)...

One Friday night, a bunch of guys from work went out to play pool. One of them picked up dirtygirl as she'd been drinking beer at home that evening *as i was as well* and took her out as well. There was an offer to pick me up, but I didn't hear it over all the other conversation in the car when they called. She called me the next morning to tell me what had happened. She said, "I kissed dirty blond AND K! OMG Autumn, I'm never gonna live this down!" Now, I know as well as they do that she sometimes gets a bit out of hand on the sauce, so no one was freaking out or anything. Then she said "You know? He's a much better kisser now." Hmmm...I didn't get to tell her that it was, in part, my doing. ;)

You know, I actually stopped working on this post earlier as I was busy with my boys, getting them ready to take over to their father's house for his week. After I dropped them and said my goodbyes, I took a drive over to see my sweet lover. Let's just say I drove home with soaking wet panties and a big grin. We both agree that our affair has long surpassed the simple "fucking" stage. We really do enjoy our time together both during random conversation and sexual encounters. I will surely end up loving this man, yet I feel mature and centered enough to accept that someday this season will end. He says "You don't know, Autumn. YOU might be the first to meet someone new."

Time will tell.

Beer drinkin' ladies in skirts

2010-07-30T23:37:00.007-03:00

I wore a dress today that made quite an impact at work. I've had said dress for seven or eight years now, and haven't worn it in perhaps three to four. Someone gave it to me. It's red, very basic style that never really goes out of fashion. Tank sleeves, zips in the back and has a slit near the hem, sits about half way between my cookie and my knees. One of those dresses I have to be careful how I bend in. :) I am ever changing in style at work. One day I'm wearing simple dress pants and a fitted t-shirt, then black tights and a long, tight *over the ass* shirt that shows every curve I've got. The next day...a sleek off one shoulder black shirt with a black pencil skirt and three inch heels.

As much as I adore dressing up, it's a struggle to keep myself nice and tidy. As the saying goes "you can dress me up, but you can't take me out" I am a clumsy mess sometimes. Not only that...I am so quick with my movements that I have to really try to remember to always BEND AT THE KNEES. So much easier to just bend at the waist, see? I was having trouble with the copier and Bandguy happened to be standing nearby. I asked him if he could open the drawer and make sure there was enough paper. Horsewhisperer said "Don't do it bandguy. Make her bend over." hahaha very funny *he did do it btw*

I managed to make it through the entire work day without flashing my ass. I'm sure it would have been nice for some if I'd been less diligent, but it's good to be aware. I had a quick conversation with the dirty blond and he said that he's noticed it's the beer drinking girls who, while are still very much ladies, tend to be a little lax with the leg movements and such. Hardest part in my opinion is getting out of the car. I'm watchful. I'm not about just flashing this sexy cookie to any ol' person ya know!

So, on the piercing...healing very well. I actually went to see her again to have a longer post put in. My hood really is a bit longer than some. I couldn't for the life of me get the ball unscrewed from the post because I kept pinching my skin. I've actually since been able to insert the shorter post again as the long one sometimes pinched me near my mound. It's fun to change the balls that hold the post. I've purchased a bunch of different coloured ones. So many new sensations it's making me one very happy lady.

Bubbly HNT

2010-07-28T22:21:00.003-03:00

Taking a page from the lovely southern girl's book, I've chosen a song for your pleasure. This one just feels right.

Bubbly By Colbie Caillat

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say

When you make me feel this way?

I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go

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Misty confessions of a family girl

2010-07-26T12:23:00.005-03:00

I've always been envious of people who are close with their parents, or families really. I've always wished for that in my life, you know? Having lost my mother when I was 13, I got a taste of what it was like to have a wonderful mother, yet our time was cut far too short. Before she passed, I went to live with friends of our family - Policeofficerdad and Churchlady. They have two daughters. Scarlett is just a month older than me, and Giggly is two years younger. POD and CL separated after we all graduated from high school and have long since moved on to their new lives. Churchlady lives in the States now and visits in my neck of the woods quite infrequently since her daughters no longer live here. She called me a couple of weeks ago to say that she would be coming to visit in a neighbour province and would I drive up with the children to see her and attend a birthday party for her mother who turned 90 years old. I said that I would go even though there was no place for us to sleep and I would have to do a return trip the same day. All week I was excited at the prospect of taking the children to places I'd been and introducing them to family (though not blood related) who they had never met before. All I needed was an address and I was good to go.

Meanwhile, I had spoken with a wonderful female blogger friend of my acquaintance to inform her that I would be coming to visit her fair town, and even though I had my boys with me, could we at least meet for coffee? She checked her schedule and was coincidentally not working that afternoon. Could it have gone any better?! Woot woot! Meeting a blogger friend is just about the coolest in my opinion.

Anyhow, as the weekend approached (that would be July 17-18) I became slightly alarmed because Churchlady hadn't called to give me the contact information and location of the party. She is a flaky woman, so this wasn't as upsetting as it may have been coming from someone else. I contacted a cousin and was able to get a telephone number for Churchlady's mom. I was trying to avoid calling her as not to spoil her birthday party surprise, but I had no choice. I called the night before the scheduled trip, knowing that even if they were staying elsewhere, they would go back to Grammie's to change and such. Before going to bed that Friday night, I laid out my clothes and other things I wanted to take for the day *just in case* she called in the morning.

She didn't call. There was no answer at her mother's and I had no choice but to stay home. I really didn't have money to take that trip and she was supposed to give me gas money when I arrived. What if I got there and couldn't find her? I didn't even have the cash to get back home honestly. *Sighs* What ifs were racing through my mind and I waited until about 9:30am to tell the boys they could plan things with their friends as we would not be traveling after all. They didn't really mind, but it hurt me.

Outwardly I will simply say "welcome to my family life" or "yeah, I'm used to it"...but inside it pains me much more than I like to admit. I'm not even sure why because I manage very well without them all the time. I guess I was just excited to be a part of things. Overjoyed that Churchlady had actually remembered to call me ON my birthday, as opposed to a month later as well! Why get my hopes up? WHY? It doesn't do me any good and generally has the same end result.

She called that Sunday to apologize for not contacting me earlier. She said she didn't have my number and had left word with Scarlett that she was trying to reach me. Of course, Scarlett lives far away in a distant time zone, so that was not fruitful for Churchlady. Hmmm, since I'm the ONLY A. Mist in the local phone book, I'm thinking that excuse is rather flimsy, so I smile with my face and my voice as I make plans to see her on Wednesday night before she flew back home. She told me who was at the party and I was more upset about not having gone. We met, we ate, she gave me birthday money. Somehow it seems that's all we've got now. Perhaps 3-5 hours per year at most, and a monetary token of her desire to make me smile.

I hesitate to write posts like this because I don't want ya'll to know when I'm sad but I decided to go ahead. It's part of what makes me who I am I suppose. As always, I am so very grateful for the wonderful friends I have who fill the family void in my life, and I am thankful to have wonderful relatives like Cuz and Sunshine who keep up with me and mine even though we don't live close. Why pine for what I will never have right? Better to enjoy all my current blessings and keep smiling.

By the way, my sweet blogger friend was only worried that I was OK. What a bitter dissapointment not to have had a chance to see her as well! rrrrrr! Yeah, so really I was a bit pissed. haha...I guess I can just say it here. :)

Eat Pray Love HNT

2010-07-21T22:18:00.002-03:00

Right after my first born graduated from grade six on June 25 *yeah, that's right! he's off to a whole new phase of life*, my children left for a two week holiday out of province with their father (as mentioned last week). They arrived back to my house on July 12, and it feels like this last week and a half has literally flown by. Gawd, summer can be busy! We spent a wonderful week together before they went back to their father's again, and STILL time is flying right on by! I've allowed a lot more social activities into my little bubble world over the past few months and I am struggling to keep the balance over here.

Last Monday, I continued with my "misty monday confessions" posts, but I did not do that one justice. With the boys having just arrived, I was rather preoccupied with household things and had little alone time on the computer quite frankly. I had planned on doing one a couple of days ago, but an impromptu visit with some old neighbours kept me out much longer than expected. Totally worth my time and efforts though and I do love to catch up with friends. I also took a drive out to a friend's (let's call him the hustler) place on Monday night. In the house he lives in, there's this part with it's own entrance that has three rooms only. One is a washroom, one a livingroom area, and the other has a beautiful old wooden bar, some chairs and a dart board. He calls the place "The G-Spot". I laughed so hard when my dirty blond told me what it was called, but after visiting I have to agree it's a pretty bomb place to chill. I tell him when he says he's heading over to the hustler's g-spot that I've got a better one for him. ;) tehehe Incidentally, he said to me last night "Autumn, you are such a sex kitten. I don't know how else to describe you. You love to pounce and play, you're feisty and fun...but really, you just want to be held." *perhaps not an exact quote, but there was comparison betweem me and kittens* I thought it was very very sweet.

Gabby today, wha?

As I'm sure a lot of you can relate, we're in the middle of a heat wave. Yeah, it's humid and sticky, but still I'll take this any day over winter weather for sure. On Saturday the boys were in and out of the house playing with friends all day. I decided to take that time to dive into a novel I bought on my birthday (Maggie bought a copy also so we can discuss). I put on my bikini with a little skirt over top and spent the better part of the afternoon sitting on my balcony reading EAT PRAY LOVE, by Elizabeth Gilbert. I'm truly enjoying her writing style as well as the experiences she writes about.

I spent a bit more time in the same position on Sunday, but it was just plain hot, so we packed up and went swimming. As you can see in the photo below, I neglected to put on a sufficient amount of sunscreen. Oops! Luckily it's already changing from bright pink to a nice brown colour. Ahhhh here comes the sun, da-da-da-da...Beautiful!

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Dancing queen, young and sweet...no longer 17 ~ HNT

2010-07-14T21:24:00.010-03:00

I LOVE to go dancing. Before July, the last time I went dancing was at our company Christmas party. I socialize, don't get me wrong, but it's normally more of an at home thing. I got to go out two weekends in a row people! woot woot!

Some of you may recognise this dress as I wore it to my 20year high school reunion last summer. Last Saturday was quite humid and warm, so too much clothing was not optional. I was happy to put it on again. Hmmm...you think it's too low cut for work? Maggie took some pics of me dancing (as I did of her, but I've not gone through and edited them yet). I've cut out the men *no offence boys* as you can see. In the first one, I was doing a fast 2-Step...so much fun. And look! My tiara was falling a little.

Just a boobie shot...nothing else to say...

The next picture was taken the weekend before my birthday. Since my children were on vacation with ex hus and family, I found myself with more free time to do as I wished. I hadn't planned on going out until I got an urgent blueberry message from my neighbour who was childless for the night and really wanted someone to go dancing with her. I happily got myself ready, we had a couple of drinks and it was off to the rodeo! :)

Are these not some seriously HOT shoes? There I was on the dance floor...getting low to the floor to capture an image. Sexy legs also. :P

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Misty confessions of a free agent

2010-07-12T11:27:00.003-03:00

It's been nearly two years since my last long-term relationship came to a sudden and painful end. Since then, I've experienced enormous personal growth and my confidence has increased drastically. I withdrew into myself for a few months and spent much more time talking to online bloggy friends than with local ones. I needed it for many reasons I guess. In my adult life, this is far and away the longest I've been single. No shared money, no one to answer to or consult with when making decisions, no fuss, no muss. I can honestly say that I've never felt this calm on a regular basis...EVER. I'm not ready to let go of that just yet, but I do need my sexy time. No question.

Let's talk about the men in Autumn's life, shall we?

Mr.Unreliable ~ never shows up on time, if at all...has gotten very little affection because of it. we hang out, but it's a rarity when something actually happens between us. we are friends for a variety of reasons but his actions irritate me sometimes. he's disrespectful and i've LONG since decided he's really not an appropriate lover for me.

The Spanker ~ an ex boyfriend who i started hanging out with again last spring. it was easy because we have a past and a comfort level. i was the one who ended the relationship more than 4 years ago now. i knew then that he wasn't the right person for me, but the sex was good. i'd been feeling the need to put an end to the physical since before the new year began really. he's very sweet to me, however, i believe the season has passed.

Dirty Blond ~ ummmmm yeah...he's real. we had our first encounter in december. he's soooooo sexy. we have a sort of teacher/student thing going on. i'm discovering that the roles are sometimes reversed in that. is this much fun really legal? tehehe

I'm not one to seek out random lovers as I said in last week's confessions post. I love being on my own, but sometimes it's a great comfort to spend time with male friends. After the incident with the monster jackass though, I've gotten a new game plan. I chose one. I'll give you 3 guesses who it is, and the first 2 don't count. :)

I'm soooo looking forward to showing off my new piercing to him.

Fuck! Goddamn..updates on the piercing experience

2010-07-10T21:42:00.008-03:00

So, it's today. My birthday and also my friend Maggie's. If you read my hnt post from Thursday you know that today is the day for the big piercing. Yep, that's right...vertical hood piercings all 'round. ;)

Maggie went first. We *of course* were wearing our tiaras like every good princess should. The piercer explained the process to us both. There is a little exploratory action in the hood, which of course is a foreign feeling. The "receiver" (a long slender tube thingy) is inserted into the hood. All I can say about it is that it feels very "pinchy" and uncomfortable. Anyhow. Maggie's knees were pressed to the sides of the piercing table (like a massage table only a bit wider and lower) and she got a cramp in her hip with the odd angle and all. She took a second to re-adjust her leg, then I took her hand as it was time to put the needle in. No one in that room...NO!...no one in the whole shop was prepared for what happened next. *Keep in mind that Maggie has several other piercing and tattoos--She's got a high tolerance for pain*

She said "OOOOHHH FUUUCK!" ...and not in the good way either. Her left leg jerked up as she spoke the words. She put it back down right away, but oh god, in that second it registered in MY mind what I was about to do as well. The piercer was just happy the needle hadn't come out with the movement. She finished off and it was all done. My turn.

I can understand completely how one could get a cramp after trying to position my body near the end of the table and also keep my legs to either side of the table. You can't quite put your feet on the floor so you have to sort of grip with the knees. Stage One complete. She cleans and starts her little exploration and markings so it's nice and straight. Like I said earlier..."pinchy". Then, the moment of truth. Maggie took my hand and then that needle went into me. *owwww!* I said "GODDAMN!" I can honestly tell you that it was a great big owwie, however, it was literally only for about 5 seconds.

Then the piercer said "Oh, here we have a bleeder." LOL

Perhaps the 4 beer I drank the night before weren't the best idea, what with the whole thining of blood and all. Oops. Anyhow, it didn't last too long and I'm hoping the healing process continues on this good track. I'm curious to try it out sexually for sure. I know half of you probably think I'm crazy, but I'd considered and reserched on it a few years back. I guess all I needed was someone else to say they'd like to get it done. More fun to share the pain with girlfriends, don't you think?

A fun time was had by all.

***Addition to post - July 11***

It seems our piercings actually look quite different. Maggie's hood is shorter but has more girth. You can see both the top and bottom balls on hers. My hood on the other hand, is quite long so the bottom ball is covered with flesh. I'll have to see if I can play around with it to snap a picture when you can see both ends. Hmmm...I don't wanna mess too much while it's just freshly pierced though. I'll let you know how it goes.

Sista Friend Twins Birthday HNT

2010-07-07T21:49:00.002-03:00

Not only is it MY birthday this Saturday, but Maggie's too. Know what's even cooler? We were born 4hours apart in the same hospital! Her mother always says we are like twins. Not in looks, but just the way we are as women I suppose. Check check this out...

We've recently re-connected and I'm truly enjoying our renewed friendship. We're very much alike, she and I. She sent me a story and I'd like to share it with all of you.

Secret Rendezvous

What was I doing, a married woman going to meet another man? I’m not sure. I just knew that when Mr. Man asked me to meet him at an undisclosed location for a secret rendezvous, I couldn't say no. I had been fantasizing about this man for over two years. I jumped at the chance.

I preened and primped, to get ready for this meeting, even wearing a dress, which is something I rarely do but I wanted to look nice for this meeting. I wanted to be sexy! I was shaking the whole time I was driving to the spot. I didn't think he would show. Maybe he was only toying with me and then...his vehicle pulled in and there he was, looking so handsome, with his shades on, arriving from his work site, to come see me!

The first thing he said to me after I told him to get in my car was, “Hi Sexy.” The clothes had done the trick or maybe, just maybe, it was me. I touched his face and removed his sunglasses so I could see his beautiful eyes and then I leaned over towards him…we kissed, slowly at first, softly then it became more intense. The feel of his tongue flicking against mine sent shivers through me. I could feel a heat in my pussy as I became moist. I took his hand and placed it on my wetness. He began to move his fingers in a rhythmical motion, touching me on my hard little clit, making me even more wet. I couldn't stop moaning with pleasure.

I touched him, on what I could clearly see, was his swollen cock. I swirled my fingers around the tip, through his pants. He too, was shaking. I wanted him inside my wet pussy but it was not to be. He continued to pleasure me with his fingers. My panties were soaked. I told him that I wanted to suck his cock and he readily agreed, releasing his thick, hard cock from his pants. I greedily took him in my mouth and began to slowly take him in and out, flicking my tongue over the head of his beautiful cock. He started to moan and then he exploded in my mouth. I swallowed his cum, enjoying the taste, as it trickled down my throat. He kissed me deeply when I finished, something I always enjoy! We kissed passionately before saying good-bye and then went our separate ways. What an absolutely beautiful day!
I would do it again in a heartbeat!

Now wasn't that refreshing? Introducing...MAGGIE!

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Incidentally, she and I are going out this Saturday to get vertical hood piercings. Daring little princesses we are. Stay tuned for those pictures that will likely be posted over in the other spot next week. :)

This is the blurry shot I didn't post with last week's hnt.

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Go see Osbasso and see who is participating this week my friends, and happy thursday!

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Misty confessions of a secret keeper

2010-07-05T11:22:00.006-03:00

I've decided to add a weekly segment to my blog to help keep me motivated to write. This year has been an explosion of events and I'm trying very hard to separate all my thoughts and manage them into tidy little posts. I will write each "confession" post on Monday, so if you're interested in knowing my little secrets...keep reading!

As you know, I've been single for almost two full years now. Quite a change for a lady who has been in and out of relationships her entire adult life. I'm working diligently at making better choices for myself this time around. I'm a little uncomfortable with new people and intimacy, so if I require some sexy-time, I usually choose a friend. I don't play around on any dating sites but do speak to people I've met here on my blog through chat. It has allowed me to have some very safe fun over the past year and a half (while not very much lately). I thought perhaps if I had more than one person in my life at any given time, it might protect me from becoming attached to any one person in particular.

Silly, naive girl that I am, I gave some local friends my site and there have been times when I've decided NOT to share something here because of it. That's less concerning to me now. Hence the misty confessions here today. It's my blog, right?

In March something happened to me that I chose not to share here. I was sexually assaulted by someone I *thought* was my friend. I sent a story to Southern Sage who posted it HERE, if you are curious about the details. It was very nice (yet emotional) to read the comments people left. It really helped validate how I was feeling. In short, we were fooling around and he bit my a few times. Hard enough to bruise me in some pretty tender places *including my clit*. I told him to leave that night, and aside from passing by him once during an event at my children's school, I hadn't seen him or spoken with him at all.

Why am I talking about this now you may ask?

My doorbell rang on Thursday morning. Of course, it was Canada Day, so I was chillin here. I opened the door and was quite surprised to see the fucking jackass. He said "Hi...wanna smoke one?" Now, I'm not the type to start screaming at someone in the doorway, so after a moments hesitation I told him to come in. Gawd, I was shaking something fierce. Not out of fear, understand, but anxiety and deep anger.

Just before he arrived, I had opened a beer. Yes, it was 11:00am...but it was Canada Day so it's OK. ;) He sat on my couch, I brought the computer chair over to sit further away. He was getting the j rolled while I talked. I said "I was very angry and upset with you the last time you were here." and he said "yeah, I thought there must have been something wrong, or you just thought I was lame."

Really? I mean REALLY? He didn't even remember what had happened? Obviously I am not a great gage of how inebriated a person is.

I went on to explain exactly what he had done, why I was angry and how it had effected me. During this time, he stood up twice asking if he could hug me all the while telling me how sorry he was. My response? "WELL YOU SHOULD BE SORRY, AND HELL NO I WON'T HUG YOU!" He was taking far too long to roll that j. I had to take over if I wanted to smoke it THAT day. I lit it and took a long haul, handed it to him, and he said "No, that's ok. You smoke it." Alright then, I will. *all the while shaking visibly* I stayed pretty damn calm in truth. I said everything I wanted to say, up to and including that he must have a very bad problem with alcohol if he did not recall these events.

He told me I should have called sooner and discussed it with him. He said he has so much respect for me and would have tried to make it up to me. I said "hey jackass! why the fuck would I want to call you after that?" I got it all out. Things changed in my mind after that you know. Subtle changes, but changes none the less.

It ended on a positive note, given the circumstance. I was able to completely clear the air, which helps since we live in the same little community and *could* run into one another on occasion. I don't like being angry or feeling intimidated in any way and felt good about being able to speak my mind without confrontation. I told him it was good that he stopped by because I would never have initiated contact with him. He asked if we could still be friends...if he could stop by to smoke one sometime. I said "NO. I don't want to be friends and I don't want any attention from you at all THANKYOUVERYMUCH!"

It's over...nothing to see here. Move along. :)

Just so you all know, I've recovered well. It has effected some aspects of my thought process and I will be adding more confessions soon.

Up close and personal...she whispers in his ear HNT

2010-07-01T20:53:00.001-03:00

She waits for him. Still warm from her bath she wraps her body in a silky veil, tying it "toga style" about her neck.

When he arrives, he takes one look and touches her breast lightly with admiration and desire. They find the most convenient piece of furniture and she straddles him. She touches his face as she kisses him...she can feel hardness through his pants and the flimsy veil she's donned. She grinds against his cock while enjoying deep kisses and tender sucking on her nipple. She's been craving her young dirty blond...

His stamina is like nothing she's experienced...much like the great girth of his shaft. They move to her bed to explore their passions...reveling in mutual excitement...exploring several new and *new to them" positions eventually settling on maintaining a physical closeness, adding intensity, of course. She places pillows under her belly, lays down and raises her hips and ass in the air. Her legs spread this way have brought the veil up high on her waist, body exposed and ready. He enters and she immediately begins to moan. So wet with desire, her pussy accepts his huge cock and feels every ridge as he pumps her. He brings his body against her back, reaching his hand under her to caress her breasts, holding her in place as he rides her. This dirty, dirty blond has captured her in this moment...taking her over completely. Slowing his pace he leans against her and brings his hard member in and out with precision. She feels all of him as his wide head presses against and into her swollen pussy.

She soaks him with her juices as he fucks her...his hand reaching her neck with light pressure...bringing emotion she didn't know was possible. She's lost in ecstasy, savouring every detail of this experience. He flips her while remaining firm inside her. His cock fills her to capacity. She smiles and draws him closer to her...scratching his back as she does so.

They shift again in sync, now she's on top of him, grinding her hot pussy onto his body for all she's worth. They rest again...light pumps, so close. She whispers how much she loves what she's feeling. She tells him how amazing his cock is and how good she feels being so close to him sharing this moment. She focuses on the ridges of his glorious cock, feels her body throb with the power of this encounter. Her muscles pulsate against his hardness and he tells her softly that he's about to cum. She braces herself for his aggression...she follows his lead and allows him to control his orgasm, waiting for the moment that eventually comes. His grip tightens as he cums, then his pace decreases and she presses against him, still moving in light, soft circle motions with her hips.

Until next time my sexy young dirty blond...

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Back to my obsession with dance...just take a look

2010-06-26T12:38:00.006-03:00

I'm coming back very soon. This week, in fact. I've got tons "in draft". There's so much to say I'm having trouble with a starting point.

As some of you know, I'm a big fan of music and dance. I'm not a dancer, but I do LOVE to shake my ass. :) This is very different, of course. Dance moves me greatly.

So well done, so interesting and powerful.

I'm trying to find an embed code for a contemporary dance piece called "Hallelujah". It made me well up with tears it was so beautiful.

I'm not dead yet HNT

2010-06-17T11:46:00.004-03:00

My life has been completely consumed with RELAY. Psst...it's tomorrow. I do plan on getting back into the swing of things once this Event is put to rest. I'm so excited I could burst but I don't have time for that either! hahaha

I'm scheduled to have a new tattoo done on August 4 (Maggie's getting one also). I will explain more about the design of the new one later, but it's going to cover the little tattoo shown below. It's gonna be BIG and beautiful!

I'm hoping this will tide you all over until I'm back. Wish me luck!

By the way, a public thank you to the lovely Nitebyrd who sent me two amazing prizes for my Event. You are so wonderful my friend. I love you for this.

Go see Osbasso. happy thursday

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"Say Cheese!" HNT

2010-06-02T23:01:00.000-03:00

Whew, I've been a busy girl. Holy hell I cannot believe that Relay is less than three weeks away! A quick update on that before I tell you the events of my weekend if you'll indulge a moment please...

Relay for Life is an event through the Cancer Society (I understand they have them in the US also). It is a twelve hour event with teams of ten. There is supposed to be at least one person per team on the track throughout the night. I've been participating for a few years and decided to join the planning committee for this year's event. I bit off a big chunk-o-work right here folks! I'm loving it but have to tell you it's been quite overwhelming being such a big part of things.

My co-bitch is actually somewhat of a real bitch. There have been a few glitches through the last three months with her, but I'm so excited with everything we've accomplished. Next year will be even better and more organized for us. I won't go into detail tonight as I'm almost asleep in my chair here but I will get back to this. Bare with me...life's been a bit insane with details lately.

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I slept over at Maggie's this past Saturday night. Now silly boys...don't get the wrong idea. Staying overnight with a female friend DOES NOT indicate girl on girl action. Pfft!

Now, if you've chatted with me or read my blog for a while you'll know that I don't go far from home for extended periods. I can count on my hands how many times I've stayed away from my house for a night in the last year. You know? It was wonderful! We had a lovely dinner, went to a sex toy shop to have a look and pick something for her to buy (my broke ass will have to wait), had some "sip-sips" (as Maggie calls them), and stayed up far later than we should have. Ummm...4:00am to be precise. I'm way too old for that. I think I'm still tired from the weekend but it's totally fine cause we spent THE BEST time catching up.

We both had the cameras out, but I was feeling a little tipsy and just didn't take many that weren't close-ups of us together. You know those drunken smiles, don't you? So, being the clumsy girl I am, I took a tumble down some stairs on Sunday. It was pouring rain and I was wearing flip flops on wooden stairs(disadvantage of being away from home and unpreparred for bad weather i guess). Anybody feel like giving me a massage cause DAMN could I use one!

Here's one that she took. Honestly, I haven't even gone through my own pictures yet. My boys came back from their dad's on Monday and it's been all about the family. Computer time has been limited and I've also developed carpul tunnel in my right wrist, so sometimes it's difficult to type. Last post I wore my wrist brace and accidentally deleted a half written post by inadvertantly hitting the wrong key on the keyboard. *sighs* I don't think all the "things about me" were quite the same as the first post, but oh well. :)

Look at the glow bracelet...we really know how to party wha? Two drunk chicks talking loud and dancing around. Who wouldn't wanna hang out with us?!

Go see Osbasso and then go see what's up with everyone else this week. happy thursday

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100 things about Me

2010-05-24T18:41:00.007-03:00

1. I smile and laugh every day. No matter what happens.
2. I have faith in the better nature of people.
3. I give trust freely and hope for the best.
4. I once had a job where I got to roller skate.
5. Pink Floyd is my favourite band. I saw them in concert back in 1994.
6. I love the smell of freshly cut grass.
7. In junior high school (middle school) I was a cheerleader.
8. I once participated in a "Snow Queen" pageant. I did not win.
9. I accept people for who they are and reserve judgement whenever I can.
10. I am a divorced mother of two boys. Currently ages 6 and 12.
11. The ex husband and I share custody and have for almost six years.
12. I graduated from college with honours. Didn't do quite as well back in HS.
13. My mother died of cancer when I was thirteen years old.
14. My older brother is a genius *for real*. I've learned so much from him.
15. I volunteer for the Canadian Cancer Society.
16. I have a full time job that I actually like.
17. Japanese food is my favourite.
18. Cooking and baking are things that I really enjoy.
19. The smell of sawdust reminds me of my father.
20. My parents divorced when I was seven.
21. After my mother died, I lived with friends of our family.
22. Guardian Parents: policeofficerdad and churchlady.
23. Guardian Siblings: both girls, Scarlett and Giggly.
24. Father remarried Stepmother (stayed with her) and had one son.
25. I grew up in a city.
26. I am very capable of taking care of myself and being responsible.
27. I have never had a long term relationship with anyone older than me.
28. My longest relationship lasted ten years.
29. I have a decent rapport with my ex husband's new wife.
30. I value family in my life. This comes in many forms.
31. I've come to know my own worth.
32. Acceptance helps me love.
33. I can talk a blue streak, but have learned when to be quiet.
34. I am distracted by shiny things.
35. I am easily excited *in many ways*.
36. Small things amuse and entice me.
37. Clever people attract my attention.
38. I enjoy writing and taking pictures. I am developing these talents.
39. I'm a hair snob. I love salon products. Worth the money IMO.
40. I'm a girlie-girl princess who loves pretty things.
41. Material things don't mean as much as time and attention.
42. My very favourite tv show is "The Big Bang Theory". So fucking clever.
43. I am very loving and affectionate.
44. Summer is my favourite season, although I love Autumn also.
45. I'd rather be sweating my ass off than freezing it off.
46. I am blessed to have wonderful friends who support and love me.
47. When I like something, I like it A LOT.
48. I am a smoker *don't judge me*.
49. I drink Budweiser.
50. I have generalized anxiety disorder *though I really dislike the label*
51. I do not take any medication for this, although I enjoy the mary-jane.
52. Pleasing others has always been important to me.
53. I've learned that thinking of myself first is sometimes to my advantage.
54. I am confident in my abilities.
55. I believe in karma.
56. People are often drawn to me for various reasons.
57. I have a low tolerance for stupid people. Sorry, true story.
58. I have seen some things that I wish I hadn't seen - ever.
59. I have been the victim of sexual assault more than once.
60. I have seen people at their worst and most vicious.
61. I am through beating myself up for past mistakes.
62. Hip hop and Rap music make me want to dance.
63. I am a brunette.
64. I have my nose pierced.
65. I have two tattoos and would like to get more.
66. Underwear are so much fun to shop for!
67. I am a dog person *though I don't currently have one*.
68. I drive a standard transmission *gotta love a manual stick*.
69. I know how to unclog a sink or toilet.
70. I want to own a cordless drill. You never know when you will need one.
71. I am not much for interior decorating.
72. I miss throwing dinner parties.
73. I feel most pretty (outwardly) when I'm dressed up and wearing make-up.
74. I have a unique sense of style.
75. Learning from my experiences (and those of others) gives me strength.
76. I am addicted to my DVR.
77. I am at peace with my time alone (when the boys are with their father).
78. I love to dance in the living room.
79. My hair is naturally curly. I wear it straight more often.
80. I love exploring my sexuality.
81. I have been with women, but am definitely heterosexual.
82. I have had a threesome with another woman and a man.
83. Though it may never happen, I am curious about having two men at once.
84. My eyes change colour. I wonder sometimes if it's based on my mood.
85. When I feel overwhelmed with things, I shut down a little.
86. HBO and Showtime programs are enthralling.
87. Sunshine makes me feel so happy.
88. I don't swim well but enjoy the water.
89. Camping is fine, as long as there's a washroom with running water nearby.
90. Although I'm approaching forty, I do not feel old.
91. I look young for my age *apparently*.
92. Although I struggle with negative thought, I am a "half full" kinda gal.
93. I have the PoP - "Power of Pussy".
94. I am a sexy and desirable woman.
95. I love sex.
96. Oral stimulation works best for my pleasure.
97. I swallow.
98. I'm bossy.
99. To me, size does matter to a degree. The bigger, the better. ;)

and last but not least...

100. I am a squirter.

Body in Motion ~ Anniversary Edition HNT

2010-05-19T23:01:00.000-03:00

This is my 200th post. Holla!

I want to say thank you to all the new peeps who came to visit my site or started following my blog! I'm sorry I haven't seen all of yours yet. I've been in a bit of a bloggy slump. I wanted you all to know that I appreciate the loves and am happy you decided to check me out.

The sexy sweet Lil Bit let me know earlier this evening that she's posted my Masquerade. She's got this really cool section dedicated to mask pictures. What are you waiting for? Check it out already! *as she jumps and claps*

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The theme for this HNT is to re-post our very first half nekkidness and then recreate it. I called this post "Body in Motion" for obvious reasons. The picture was taken in early 2008 by the pig (my ex bf). I'm kicking myself now for not having saved the entire set. It was a very exciting night. I would have posted them all at some point just out of pure naughty spite perhaps.

Body in Motion
originally posted dec.3/08

Tonight I want to tease you. I want to kiss, lick and nibble at your sensitive inner thighs before taking all of you in my mouth. I want to make you squirm before I ride you.
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My Recreation...

Eventually I discovered the joys of timer pics. While I can't get every single angle down, I think I've gotten the hang of it. I discovered tonight that it's a lot harder than I thought to set the camera on an angle, set the timer, bounce and get the right body parts in a shot all at once. ;)

Next time, I'm getting some help.

I decided to add the second because even though the exposure is off, I think it's really cool.

Go see Os...the man who started it all 5 years ago! happy thursday

Click the button for more, sexy people!

Freshly Fucked HNT

2010-05-12T22:01:00.002-03:00

You know that look...

hair flying in every direction
lips being nibbled, licked and kissed
mouth stretching to taste him
wide eyes
intense desire
slow riding
harder! faster!

...Mmmmm freshly fucked

Right before taking these pictures, I'd spent a few hours romping with a sweet lover. We took a shower and went to bed but definitely not to sleep. My hair is naturally curly but gets quite frizzy if left to dry on it's own. I'm thinking it might be good to have someone tousle me up some mornings through the summer. Might have a new style trend even. Ya think?

*i wanna do it again - click please*

Go see Os and let everyone know your post is up. happy thursday

Click the button for more hotness!

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I seem to have gotten in a habit of posting my hnt's on Wednesday nights these days. I'm becoming a steady rebel it seems. ;)

I have a ton of stuff on the go for Relay, which is in just 5 weeks now. I'm planning a couple of posts this weekend with updates and such. I'm VERY excited!

Someone named Manuel left a strange comment on my "Who the hell are these people" post. *which appears on my sidebar* I didn't publish it because whoever it was called me a piece of shit bitch and told me I better not come back to Cali and what about my daugher?! Ummm...I've never ever been to Cali and I don't have a daughter either. You have me confused with someone who has obviously offended you. Continue your search and leave me out of it please.

PLEASE NOTE: IMPORTANT POST AT BAREFOOT'S SITE -- GO THERE.

Bustin' Out HNT

2010-05-05T22:01:00.002-03:00

I've always considered the "black bra under a light coloured blouse" look to be a fashion faux-pas however, when I'm just kickin' it at home and wanting to take a few quick pictures...it's kinda sexy.

Any thoughts? The comment box is yours. ;)

*please roll your mouse over the picture (boobie, no boobie...)*

Go see Os, the man who started all this hnt business we so dearly love. I mean really...why wouldn't we? happy thursday

Click the button for the bold and the beautiful. :)

Behind the Wall

2010-05-01T11:44:00.004-03:00

Behind the Wall -- Tracy Chapman (1983)

Last night I heard the screaming
Loud voices behind the wall
Another sleepless night for me
It won't do no good to call
The police
Always come late
If they come at all

And when they arrive
They say they can't interfere
With domestic affairs
Between a man and his wife
And as they walk out the door
The tears well up in her eyes

Last night I heard the screaming
Then a silence that chilled my soul
I prayed that I was dreaming
When I saw the ambulance in the road

And the policeman said
"I'm here to keep the peace
Will the crowd disperse
I think we call could use some sleep"

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The song above has always reminded me of a dear friend who I will call Maggie. A beautiful, vibrant girl who I've known since my early teens. When we were just 19, I witnessed a horrible event. I'd gone over to meet her boyfriend for the first time, and when I arrived, there was an awful fight in progress. He had knocked her down a flight of stairs and kicked her in the head. We left her building and started walking. He followed. They argued. As I stood there helpless, just two feet away, I watched him break her nose with his head. We spent that evening at the hospital. The doctor said she was very lucky the blow to her head was not just an inch or so down...otherwise she may have died.

I was called to testify in court. He pleaded guilty and there was no need of my words. They ended up getting back together.

Fast-forward 19 years...

She called the police in February and he's gone. I went to visit her on Thursday night and god, am I glad I did. We hadn't seen one another in over 2 years, but she's always had a spot in my heart. No matter what. I am so PROUD of her.

Nobody knows what compels others to stay in a relationship. Nobody can truly walk in the shoes of another and understand entirely why a choice was made.

It's my job as her friend to love her. She doesn't need any "I told you so's"...she needs my support and friendship. She needs to re-build her confidence and know that she is worthy of so much.

My heart is full.

Hand in the cookie jar HNT

2010-04-28T22:01:00.000-03:00

She's been expecting him...ready in her slinky black nightie, thong and heels. A "too sexy" mask about her neck that she will use later...

When he arrives, she gives him a brief moment to remove his coat and shoes before pouncing. She gently pushes him up against the wall and whispers "stay here". She wants to touch his skin, run her tongue up his spine and make him want her desperately. She raises his firm, athletic arms up and places his hands against the wall. She removes his shirt and continues her exploration of his beautiful form, tracing her way with soft fingers down his arms, back, sides and onto his tight round ass. She reaches to caress the bulge under his jeans as she brings her body close to his. She breathes in his scent...both clean and masculine. This hot young dirty blond is hers for tonight.

"Those jeans have got to go now", she whispers softly.

Still standing by the wall he removes his clothes revealing his lean, lithe body. He turns to face her and she smiles. She devours him with her eyes as she slowly bends to kneel in front of him. She works her way around, teasing with her tongue before she tastes his twitching cock. His hands are running through her hair softly and she feels his urgency as he closes his fingers around her locks and tugs her head back to look into her eyes. Her sly half-smile lets him know she's ready to gobble him up. As she slowly takes him into her mouth she feels her own excitement grow. She moans around him causing vibration and takes him fully in, slowly rolling her tongue on his head. She continues pleasuring him this way for a time until he tells her how much he wants to be inside her, here against the wall. He lifts her up and she wraps her legs tightly around his waist. Her back against the wall now he pauses to cover her eyes with the mask then enters her while kissing and nibbling at her lips. The pace quickens and her body begins to quake. Her nails dig into his back, her thighs tighten around him as her first orgasm hits. Her moans get louder as he continues his rhythm until she calls out his name and ejaculates again.

He whispers "it's still early" and carries her off...

*click for the cookie jar*

The beautiful Barefoot Dreamer was kind enough to make a little collage for me. Isn't it oh so pretty? Thank you girlie. muah!

Go see Os because he totally rocks! happy thursday

I contributed the last of this series of pictures over on the other spot. Click the button to see all the hotness. :)

I'm no "Mess in a dress"...I'm a strong, independant woman

2010-04-24T14:49:00.004-03:00

As you know I am single. No spouse, no boyfriend. I've added somewhat of a relationship based song but it strikes me that there have certainly been times when I felt this disrespected and belittled.

My ex husband decided to tell me quite nonchalantly that he's going to fight for full custody of our children. I currently have primary custody yet we've been sharing them (one week to me, one to him) for almost six years. *yeah, yeah broken record, but sometimes people get confused by the concept* I wasn't concerned for a moment that he could actually take them from me, but quite distraught at the idea of a battle of such proportions. So unhealthy for our children and for our parent relationship. He called the following night (after I'd spoken with my lawyer) and said he hadn't even been to see anyone yet. I told him to just send any papers right along to my lawyer if that was his plan. *big, big sad sighs*

We've worked it out so well over the years. There have often been hiccups but we've been pretty civil mostly. The horsewhisperer at work often says that ex hus still treats me as if we are married and I'm to do what he says when he says. I happen to agree. If I balk, he calls me a bitch. Oh well, such is life. I married him, I opened up my legs and here I am today. More good than bad has come out of it, so all is well.

The day after our initial short discussion on Wednesday, he wanted to discuss some issues. The boys don't show me the proper amount of respect. I do my very best to be everything to them, but there are occasions when I am admittedly inconsistent. Not with consequence, but sometimes I give in to things when I should not. Speak to any single mother or mom who stays home while the spouse is away for work and you'll see that this happens with many of us. Its definitely something I work on every day. We have good days, and bad ones. My children are good boys but sassy. Ex hus thinks that I need to make some major changes in order to keep them from "going bad" as he says. I agree we need to have more strict rules *a chart on the wall with their signatures seems appropriate*.

Gawd! Why didn't he just talk to me instead of being a complete ASS HAT about it? Why did he have to break my trust in him NOT to do something dirty and underhanded? How could he possibly think that taking them away is going to make them have ANY respect for me? I'm no longer concerned that he'll go through with it. I'm very angry at him. I'm very tired of being plowed over by his "TYPE-A" personality.

Here's the thing though. He brought this to me on a week when my children are here with me. As you can imagine, this was extremely upsetting. I worked very hard to contain my upset as I went through my evening routine. He called the last two nights wanting to discuss things. He became confrontational when I suggested we speak at a later date when I am less upset and angry so that we can avoid a fight. I've been dealing with him since I was 23 years old. I am quite aware of how to deal with him after his initial freak out. I could tell you many horror stories of things he's done over the years to "punish" me when I don't do what he says.

THIS GOES TO RESPECT...How do my children learn to respect me when their father clearly does not? I am a capable, intelligent woman. I am a good, kind, loving mother. I do not deserve this disrespect. I will do what I can on my end to make my children see the importance of respect for me but I've no support in my home but me, myself and I.

I am grateful I have a place to vent. I know things will work out ok, but please understand...our parent relationship has been badly damaged by the events of this week. I'm ever grateful also for my wonderful friends here locally who love and support me in my struggles. I am a lucky woman...rich in many ways. I simply want peace and happiness in life.

Crawling HNT

2010-04-21T22:26:00.000-03:00

This part doesn't go along with the hnt post (which I drafted last night) but I'm seriously struggling right now. I've got something big going on and need to spill. Here's a hint for you...I need to speak to my family lawyer first. Custody shit. yep. More on that later, I am simply too emotionally and physically drained to completely divulge at the moment. I'm so sorry I've not been making rounds I miss you all so much. I'm trying...I'll get there.

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*clickity-click*

Visit Os, the undisputed King of HNT. happy thursday!

I contributed another pic from the same set. As always, lots of yummy pics if you click the button below. :)

Workday Dumbassery, Os's birthday and a very late Too Sexy HNT

2010-04-15T21:52:00.005-03:00

I come home for lunch most days. I cook something, mess on the computer, sometimes clean...whatevs.

As I was leaving today I grabbed my purse and realized JUST as the door shut (locked from the inside so my son doesn't forget to lock) that I didn't have my fucking keys! My first thought was 'ok, I'll drive to the school and get eldest son's' and immediately remembered the car key is on the same ring. Thank Jebus I wore wedged heeled boots today and not the skinny 3" ones. I had to walk to the school. Unexpected power walk there and of course it was misty/rainy as well! When I arrived and had signed in and gotten my visitor's pass, I went to his class. He was on lunch and playing a video game on the computer while his friends watched. I said his name and that little 12 year old bugger IGNORED me! I said it again and even his friends were nudging him. I went to the hallway with him to retrieve the key. He began to walk away, and just for fun I said 'hey, come back'...then I gave him a big hug in the hallway. hahaha! He got away quick as he could. I walked back home, got my keys and hid his. First time I've done that in 14 years. That's a whole other story really.

I had called to say I would be late from lunch. When I got back to work, some smartass saw me pull in and locked me out. They figured I would either laugh, or they would all have a very bad afternoon. I laughed. 'Nuf said.

It's Os's birthday! Show him extra special loves won't you? He's awesome and keeps us all connected really.

Took some pictures tonight. I really dig these. I'm so late, but what can you do? Sometimes life just sneaks up and gets in the way.

*the mask says 'Too Sexy'...I love it!*

Go Osbasso, it's your birthday! happy thursday!

It's Os's birthday and in celebration, lots of folks have contributed some lovely messages to him. Go check it out. Always wonderfully sexy.

These are the Pros and Cons of hitchhiking

2010-04-10T16:00:00.001-03:00

She said:
"Come on over here you silly boy
Before you catch your death of cold
I was only joking
Let's leave behind the city grime
Let's not compete
It could be fine in the country
Couldn't it though...come on let's go

I said:
"OK"
~P&C of hitchhiking - 4:47am "The Remains of Our Love"

I wanted the dream...the fairytale where someone loved me just for being me. The love, the shared home, the children to come, I wanted it all and I wanted it to last forever.

Real life isn't exactly like that though, is it? Now I'm not sitting here dwelling on my failed marriage. We made the very best decision breaking up and I know that for a fact deep in my heart. The children tie us now and forever. We do what we can to get along for their sake because there's no mistaking that their well being comes first. Sharing them one week on and one week off for each is the fairest way we could have chosen. He's a controlling sort of man though, so it's not without challenges. I pick my battles and try to keep the peace unless I am highly offended by any decision concerning my children that I was not consulted about. He has since re-married and seems to think that discussing things with her and doing it is sufficient. I get so tired of hearing either of them say "well WE decided". pfft! He needs to remember that I'M NOT HIS BITCH!

I tend to "fall into" situations. I don't know if I'm explaining it well, but what I mean is that I end one relationship only to find another one with little time in between. I'm making the strongest effort to learn from my mistakes and take my time. As many of you probably know, I have been out of my last relationship for a year and a half now. It was the second since the end of my marriage in 2003. Each was over two years and resulted in a live-in arrangement. My children got attached.

The first was the spanker who I have spoken about here before. He loved and accepted me very much but had great difficulty with the family life. He wouldn't go anywhere with me if my ex husband was going to be there. I can understand his frustration, but it's a huge part of my life to attend events for my children. It's really a must to participate in some of these things at least. I eventually left him but we've since become friends again. I am pleased because he is a comfort but I know for certain that I will never have him in my life permanently. He can't be a part of my children's lives again because that would be going backwards in my opinion. I already know the relationship doesn't work with him, so there it is. I do, however, enjoy having sex with him. It's about time I move along from that though before feelings get hurt.

And then there's the pig. The shortest of all my adult life relationships, but somehow the one that caused me the most discord and sadness. I've always been a very open person. I'm not shy and I love to talk. The pig seemed to be ok with who I was but I found out two years later when be broke up that he found it to be the most negative part of my personality. It shocked me to the core. I mean, why spend that long with a person if you cannot stand the very way that they are? Who the fuck does that? Can you tell I feel burned? Again, not drudging it all back up, but trying to explain how deeply my thought process has been effected by this experience. You may have read some posts way back if you've been following for a while. It was first time that someone had walked out on my life. It was abrupt and the circumstance had a very dramatic feel which I am grateful to be far away from. He was very close to my children, so it made strong impact on their feelings.

Since then I've been just laying low. I've made no effort to look for a steady companion. I'm still not ready to commit to one person. I love my freedom. I love being in control of my life and surroundings (to the degree that any person can be). My sweet friend Red and I had a conversation about why I am not in a rush to seek it all out. You know? I just want to protect my children and myself from the struggles that may follow. I know this will pass. The right person will come along and those feelings will subside.

Sharing a song and artist that I really dig here...

Ms. Perky Tits 1995...and still going strong HNT

2010-04-08T00:01:00.003-03:00

Ms. Perky Tits 1995, that's me. Voted in by seven of my closest friends back in the day. I'm pretty pleased to say that they're still pretty perky even after having babies and all of that.

I spent a weekend away at a cottage with my ex husband (before we married) and three other couples in the fall of 1995. A couple of beers into the evening on the first night, we decided to see how cold the lake was. It gets pretty effin cold up here in the Great White North but it had been a hot summer so the water was still decent. Then someone suggested skinny dipping. Ooooohhh fun! Ever the brave girl, I waded out into the water first, followed by a female friend. We waited until we were immersed in the water to remove our swimsuits. I was teasing the pussies standing up by the cottage taking their sweet time getting into the lake. Impatient and animated as always, I started doing jumping jacks as I called out my slights.

That is how I earned my title. :)

*no click today...it's my not-so-half-nekkid hnt*

Visit Os for all the half nekkid news. happy thursday!

Are my pants on fire cause I lied last week. I told you it was the 4th anniversary of OHNT but it's THIS week sexy people! There are likely to be more submissions than usual so be sure to check it out. I made a contribution myself actually. :)

Got my hair did HNT

2010-03-31T23:06:00.008-03:00

I was out all evening getting my hair highlighted and cut. It's so late that I hadn't really planned on posting hnt this week, yet here I am. I've got a little before and after for you. The first picture was taken on Saturday night before the fundraiser, and the other I took about 15minutes ago. :)

Quite a lot of colour right there! I love going into springtime this way. It's been about three years since I've had my hair coloured. What an awesome treat. My visa took a little kick, but it was worth it. :)

I'm feeling rebellious tonight and have decided to throw caution to the wind and click "publish post" right now. Yeah, it's Wednesday...so what?

Go see Os for more half nekkid fun. happy thursday

It's the fourth anniversary over at the other hnt. NSFW but oh so delightful.

Relay fundraiser, Dirtygirl's critter problems and other things...

2010-03-28T13:00:00.012-03:00

FYI - This is not my rant post--quite the opposite actually since I've got exciting news!

My Relay team hosted a "Funny Fundraiser" event at a local pub last night. Six of ten team members were able to attend and it was such a success! I am so pleased to tell you that we raised over $1600 for our Relay For Life in June. Wow guys! The tickets sold for $20 each. There were three comedians, a 50/50 draw (that alone collected $366 - half of which went to the lucky winner) as well as a small auction. We had five fabulous items donated by very generous businesses which generated almost $500 towards our total. The event was costly and we paid it as soon as he arrived, that way everything else was gravy. Someone painted a portrait of our friend "Bean" (who passed away last September) and it was presented to her parents at the end of the night.

YAYYYYYYY TEAM BEAN!

I sucked up my pride and called my ex husband yesterday morning to ask if he would take the boys overnight so I could attend the fundraiser and be available to help in any way I could. I am so glad it worked out because it was amazing and heart warming and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. It was pretty nice to get dressed up and strut my stuff as well. :)

Funny, I ran into a man that stood in my wedding back in 1996. He is the manager of the pub we used for our event. Blast from the past right there. You know? I had four bridesmaids and groomsmen in my wedding party and I don't see or talk to any of them. All my girls were military wives who eventually moved out of province and we've since lost touch. Sad, but true. Oh how differently I would do it now...not that I'm really considering marriage of course.

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Onto Dirtygirl...

When I arrived at work on Friday morning, I stopped in the kitchen for a moment before going past Dirtygirl's office to my own.

One of the guys said "Have you seen DG yet?"

Me: "No, not yet. Why? Is she cranky?"

Guy: "It's not that, and she's not sick. I don't want to spoil the surprise for you."

hmmm...

So, I opened the door between the warehouse and the showroom and stood in her office doorway. When I took a breath, I understood exactly what had happened. Dirtygirl smelled like a skunk. A goddamn skunk! ewwwww

She just moved into a mobile home the weekend before. She was complaining about the critter noises she's been hearing at night. Of course, she's readjusting to country living after being in an apartment in the middle of the city for the last five years or so. She appears to have a bit of a raccoon problem and she can hear them scratching under the trailer sometimes. *sigh*

So, Thursday night she woke up to a nasty scent around 3:00am and opened the window on the entrance side of her home. She woke up to prepare for work and was certain that a skunk had sprayed under her place. She grabbed her work jacket (inconveniently located on the back of a chair under the open window) and went off to work. Once she took her coat off it was still all over her. Oh man, she was so upset. Bossman told her she needed to find some clothes if she's to stay at all because after only 15minutes or so, it was already making it's way around the main entrance.

Bossman told her to go home for the day, but she didn't seem to know it in her excitment and concern. I went to her office and told her as gently as possible that she should go home for the day. Poor Dirtygirl.

I won't deny it, I fucking laughed. I felt bad and was concerned about how much it will cost her to get the rank smell out of her house but I couldn't help myself. I think it's very funny cause it didn't happen to me. Bitchy...but so true. *smirk*

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I'm having a lovely Sunday afternoon here. We had unusually high temperatures last week, so it feels cold at 2-5degrees celsius today but it's sunny and calm and absolutely gorgeous. I met the boys this morning for Breakfast with the Easter Bunny and now they are enjoying the great weather outside with their friends.

I had a great conversation with my father to tell him about my fundraiser and to see how he's holding up, of course. He is coping with his new situation a little bit better and that's good to see. I'm happy to know that he's settling in. Separation and divorce isn't easy no matter your age.

Today is a happy day. :)

Unwritten HNT

2010-03-25T00:01:00.006-03:00

As you know, I've faded away a little around here. I've had lots going on in general, but more recently something happened that's just made me think a lot. I'm feeling a really big vent post coming on but will ask those of you who know me in my real life to skip it please. Don't take this personally, I just need to vent in a place where I can have my own private space.

I need to get my groove back, have you seen it?

I heard this song on the radio and knew I had the title for this HNT post.

I totally dig the gospel choir.

"Unwritten"

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

~~Natasha Bedingfield

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I really like this angle. Very soft and pretty. I love this sweet cotton nightie. Seems it was a little nipply that night though. ;)

Make sure to stop by Osbasso's site for more half nekkid fun. happy thursday

Keep in mind that the button below leads to a very sexy hot link and it's NOT safe for work. Enjoy!

My Refreshing Stay-cation

2010-03-21T21:23:00.004-03:00

I am now enjoying the last of my five days off. I took the latter half of March Break as vacation days to hang out with my children. After a little rearranging with their father, I traded some days so I was able to have them these past five days, and onto my regularly scheduled time. I've got them for nearly two weeks before they go back to their dad's. They keep me busy and offer me that wonderful sense of balance in my life. I do love shared custody. It offers THEM balance with both of parents, which is the most important thing.

We didn't travel anywhere. Most of the days I've had my boys plus each a friend here with us. We had the most amazing weather. So spring like...sunny and mild. *sigh* We went to the playground, took some pictures, watched movies (my young one has watched "Mama Mia!" at least eight times), went out for a nice dinner and generally just enjoyed time together.

Prior to the stay-cation days, I worked nine in a row. I prepared my hnt post on Tuesday before the kids arrived with the intentions of composing something for it on Wednesday night. As I said, there were sleepovers going on. I put the young ones to bed and came into the living room to lay on the couch, waiting for 10:00pm to roll around to I could send the pre-teens to sleepy land as well. Turns out I was much more tired than I thought. I was out cold before bedtime came. I woke up at 3:00am feeling tremendously disoriented. I rarely fall asleep on the couch, so it was a bit unusual. All the lights were out, the tv off...I made my way to bed and was up again by 7:30am or so. I asked my son when we woke up what time they'd gone off to bed and he says 10:30pm. That could well be, but I was dead to the world so it could have been 1:00am...who knows?!

In other news

My lovers are dropping like flies!

I'm sad to say good-bye to one, but respect that it's easier to end it now before any sappy feelings get in the mix. I don't want things to get weird. He's also a really great guy and a good friend, so this is better. I will surely miss his tight young bod.

Another just turned out to be undesirable. I'm zipping my lips here but did share it with Southern Sage who is going to post it on his site this Wednesday I think. I just don't feel like having it in my achieves I guess. Whatevs, stay tuned if you like. :)

I'm having some very wonky computer problems. I think my computer needs some serious tech support. I'll have to take all my naughty pictures off before I take it anywhere. I've had extremely limited computer time over the last week. I have tons of catching up to do around here. As spring progresses, I often find my energy levels higher and tend to stay up a little later at night. That's my favourite time to read blogs. It's quiet and private. It'll come.

I'm glancing down at the time thinking "I gotta go to bed soon, back to work in the morning~crap!

I suppose it will be good to get back at it, but I really did enjoy this time. I'm totally feeling the family love.

Restless HNT

2010-03-18T00:01:00.000-03:00

*hit that baby*

Visit Os my loverlies.

As usual, there are some sexy people over here as well. :)

I Got Fucked...

2010-03-15T06:37:00.008-03:00

Another month gone already? I can't believe how quickly the time has passed since the new year began. Kimberly chose this month's theme, claiming she was feeling dirty. Gotta love a good dirty girl!

"I got the magic clit
I know if I get licked once, I get licked twice
I am the baddest chick
Surely you don't believe me, then come with me tonight
And I'll show you maaagic"
~~L'il Kim - Magic Stick

Sometimes it's not all about the cock. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE cock but sometimes I want to be pampered and have it be all about me. I want my clit licked and sucked. I want to be finger fucked until I cum like mad. Lucky girl that I am, I've got men who enjoy fulfilling my princess needs. If you didn't already know this about me, I am a heavy-duty squirter. I will continue to cum until the stimulation is gone. I suppose that's partly why I enjoy it all so much. Heavenly release...mmm. Thing is, when my boy toys visit me I don't always have condoms. If they don't bring one and I don't happen to have any, they seem perfectly content to simply spend their time pleasuring me. I am certainly not above sucking some serious cock either, so there is incentive for them I assure you.

I recently had a spontaneous visit from a friend and I GOT MINE. I got fucked...

It was rough, savage even. He spread my legs and went to work on my pussy with his tongue, pushing my body against the couch hard as he held my ass cheeks in his hands. He wanted to touch every part of me. He pulled on my nipples as he ate me hard. I felt light-headed and tremendously aroused. I couldn't contain my screams any longer as I released the first time. He swallowed my essence and lapped up what had run down to my ass and thighs. Not satisfied with making me cum just once, he continued while inserting one finger...then two...then three. The mixture of pleasure and pain was incredible as he pumped his fingers in and out bringing me to climax again and again. We moved to my bed for more of the same. He helped me fuck my pussy with a toy, revelling in the liquid treasures I expelled. Had we more hours in the day, our session would have continued but as we know, all good things must come to an end. Perhaps we shall continue our exploration at a later date.

He called me a "Top Shelf" woman. One who knows exactly who she is, what she wants, and how to get it.

Be sure to click on the links below to read everyone's take on this title. I'm positive there will be some exciting reads!

Ronjazz
Petal
Adulterous Letch
Britni
they belong to us
Hubman
Veronica
Topaz
Dreamwalker
Gray
Bri
Spring Flower
Choc'ladee
Kimberly

Hope Chest HNT

2010-03-11T00:01:00.003-04:00

I was telling Glamgal tonight about the guy who comes to read our power meter every month at the office. Oh My God he's sexy. I wish I could show him more than the meter room. I always say hello as he passes but haven't had a conversation with him. I get all giddy and feel the blood rush to my face when he walks by he's THAT hot. Dirtygirl usually notices wedding rings *which is great because i never do* and I don't think he wears one. I happen to know someone who works for the power company who might know him. Hmmm...perhaps I need to find out more about this man. This little note has absolutely nothing to do with the picture below, but I was just talking on the phone and still have Mr.Sexy on the brain. :)

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This chest was hand carved in Haiti. I've had it since 1995 and I think it's absolutely gorgeous. I shifted the room around over the holidays and decided leave it out so people can see it when they come over. It's fabulous for holding all kinds of little treasures.

*click please*

Stop by Os's place to see what's new and exciting. happy thursday

Click this button...BAAM!

Softness

2010-03-08T21:13:00.006-04:00

I've had this picture sitting in my folder for some time now. I think it's a true representation of me. No sucking in, just my natural form *edited for extra softness*. I'm quite shy about my belly. I am who I am and certainly accept that, but I have a crazy-ass c-section scar that I prefer to keep private. I showed this picture (scar is covered) to an online friend once and he said that he loves my belly and he would love to rest his head there. I thought it sounded just lovely. :)

It's not thursday, but I wanted to post this anyhow.

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Work has been crazy. Our fiscal year end was February and I've been a very busy lady working on various accounting tasks as well as physical inventory and whatnot. *sigh* We have a trade show this weekend and that means we're back to Dirtygirl's meat market. We work a shift together on Sunday and I'm sure I'll be extremely entertained.

Love / Hate HNT

2010-03-04T00:01:00.005-04:00

I found the most fabulous deal in February. I've been wanting a new winter coat for a long time now. I've got one with my work logo on it that I was wearing pretty much every day in the winter and I've got one that goes with my snowpants, but it's not at all dressy as you can well imagine. I happened across the one I bought while looking for an item of clothing for my first born in this funky store he loves.

The label on the inside of the coat was so fucking cool I took a picture of it for you to see. The tag is pretty cool too with the drawing of the pretty lady.

*click to see the coat*

*click for a little more*

Now go see Osbasso to see who's playing this week. happy thursday

Click this button for the naughty loves. I know ya wanna.

WAIT! Before you go, please click on this link to Hubman's new domain.

Holy hell this week is flying by!

Spank me HNT

2010-02-25T23:29:00.001-04:00

I've straightened out the date stamp issue and all future pictures will be sans wrong date. I got my techie on and overcame. :)

I'm just about to go to bed but decided to show you my ass before I rest for the night. I could use a good spanking...any takers?

I'm sure you've already been by now, but go see Os's blog. happy thursday

Click this button to see some sexy peeps.

Butterfly Kisses ~ My Tribute to Mom

2010-02-24T21:23:00.005-04:00

I absolutely adore butterfly kisses. They feel so soft on my cheek and inevitably make me giggle. They always remind me of Mom. It's something I recall from early childhood and I give them to my own children as well. They dig it.

I've noticed something big...my weekly epiphany.
Although I can recall so many things about my mother, I can no longer see her in my mind's eye. It's been 25 years now, so I suppose it's natural for that to happen. I have pictures of her and can certainly recall those in my mind, but not the real her. The animated one who I lived with so long ago.

I said so at work today and Horsewhisperer *the general manager* said: "Autumn, I've seen a picture and honestly...look in the mirror and you'll see her."

I find February very long. Every year I think of Her. It's good, healthy, and cleansing in ways but it makes me pensive and withdrawn in thought at times. I normally compose a post the day before to publish on February 24 but I just didn't know what I wanted to say this time. There was a challenge given at my last Cancer Society meeting to compose a poem about a loved one who has had Cancer. I had hoped to write it here today and yet here I sit typing something different. I've got it up there floating in my mind. The words will come.

I was reading a french book with my bubba tonight and he said something I simply had to post. He asked me how I understood his french books. I told him that I didn't take all my lessons in french like he and his brother, but I had french classes all through elementary, junior and high school and after graduation in summer immersion cegep. He asked how old I was and I told him 18.

Bubba: "Mama, did you have your Mom then?"

Me: "No baby. I was 13 when she died. Just a year older than your brother is now."

Then he gave me this look and said...

"That's so saaaad."
"You didn't get to have her for very long Mama, but WE get to have YOU still here with us!" *big smiles and high fives*

I feel so blessed to have had Her in my life for even a moment. I'm happy to have had such a warm, loving example of parenting to draw on as I raise my own. Today I am wishing to hear memories from those who knew her. Just because it makes me feel close to her.

Who needs "Calgon" when you've got this?!

2010-02-21T19:21:00.015-04:00

I've decided to review something different . The fine people at The Adult Toy Shoppe have sent me a very special treat this time. As mentioned in a previous post, my little guy had to have day surgery to remove a "foreign object" from his foot. That was last Monday and he's been back to school, out sledding, and having fun with his brothers. Children are so resilient. It's been a busy week and I was so happy to find my little treasure when I got home from work on Friday. :)

Treasures of the Sea is a product made by Kama Sutra. You can find it on the Adult Toy Shoppe website under "love kits" on the sixth page. It is a truly beautiful product. It no longer comes in a tin, but a plastic container with a natural sea shell sealed in plastic also inside. One shell scoop and it turns your bath a lovely shade of blue. So soothing...not to mention the aroma of it. It's made from sea salts, seaweeds, and organic moisturizers.

This product is also very soothing for various skin conditions such as dry skin, eczema, those pesky girlie issues as well. While it won't completely heal afflictions, it's also great to use on children if they have chicken pox of measles. The combination of scent and sight makes bathing with treasures of the sea a truly relaxing experience. Please note *use two scoops if bathing with a partner for favourable results*

See how pretty that looks? I have really good water pressure and when I put the salts in the water it got really foamy and bubbly. So inviting. I'm not normally a big fan of baths. More of a shower girl really. I am always on the go, not often sitting in one spot for long unless there is something really capturing my attention. I actually enjoyed my bath on Friday night so much that I took another last night as well.

Saturday night I decided to bring my glass toy to the bath with me. It really does make the water and your skin feel delightfully smooth. I didn't play much with the toy in there because I later sought the comfort of my bed for that pleasure. I simply ran it along my thighs and lips to test how smoothly it moved on my body under water. Incidentally, it was gliding along me. So soft and nice.

I also scooped water into my hands and ran them down my arms along the spots where my skin feels dry and itchy in these ever changing temperatures of February.

As you can tell, I LOVE this product! It sells for $24.95, which in my opinion is very good since it's not the type of thing you would have to use every day. It is packaged as 500grams. Seriously buy some if you can or if you haven't tried it before and are curious. A very very luxurious bath indeed.

*Please note* I am aware that the date appears on my photos and that it's the wrong date. I am still messing with Hubman's camera here and will need to get my techie on while reading through the manual. :)

The Day...

2010-02-17T21:19:00.001-04:00

That dirty, dirty Kimberly used her discretion and changed the group post date to today, rather than Feb.15. It's been a busy week for all it seems. Thank you sexy lady for always keeping us abreast of new developments.

I'm late posting because I was trying to decide how I wanted to write this one (not to mention taking the time to sit down and actually compose). When I saw the title my mind was filled with several ideas. There are so many directions one might take.

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The day you left I felt completely overwhelmed...
Such bitter words and wild accusations left a sting.
I accept my part in the beginning of the end and
As I have always done, I rolled the words over and over again in my mind
Like a slow torture, your comments ate at my soul.

Then someone said to me "Autumn, you decide. Don't wait for him to come back to you. Decide if you even want him when he does come back."
I reflected on this and decided she was right.

Every friendship and relationship in life has a season.
My short time spent with that man was not without benefit.
I've come to terms with who I am entirely.

We try to keep our lives together in spite of ourselves to avoid failure.
I'd rather have tried and failed than never experienced these things.
As long as there's personal growth, my journey will continue on a good path.

I'll leave you with this quote:

If you've ever been criticized or rejected or have failed to achieve an important goal, you know how natural it is to feel hurt and disappointed. But if you berate yourself as worthless and unlovable, you'll be giving yourself distorted messages and destroying your self-esteem. Being rejected and failing are universal human experiences. They don't make you "a reject" or "a failure"--they make you a human being.
Even if you behave badly, it won't do much good to write yourself off as a "bad person." You will simply waste time and energy ruminating about how lousy and terrible you are. This will only incapacitate you and make the problem worse. In addition, this is very self-centered because you're entirely caught up in yourself! Genuine self-esteem is based on humility and an acceptance of your shortcomings. This makes it possible to assume responsibility for your actions, to feel remorse, to apologize and make amends, and to get on with productive and joyous living.

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Here are all the sexy bloggers participating in this month's group post.

Petal
Kink Chronicles
Veronica
Ronjazz
Ms Scarlett
Hubman
Aurore
Mykeyman
Gray
Advizor
Duchess
FG Sakes
Topaz
They belong to us
Kimberly

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I'll have to pass on HNT this week. It's been really busy and I haven't even taken pictures yet! Be patient a little longer my pretties. I'm ready to take some this weekend. ;)

TMI Tuesday #227 - Fat Tuesday

2010-02-16T00:01:00.003-04:00

The Valentine's Day Edition.

1. Have you had sex with another person in 2010? Have you passed on an opportunity to sex with another person in 2010?

At first, I interpreted this question as if it meant another--other than the SO. Now, I don't have one of those so I'm a free agent. Also, I'm sure it's just meant as opposed to some monster satisfactory self gratification (which I get a lot of). The answer is yes.

*chirp...

*chirp...

Oh, am I supposed to elaborate? I'll tell you this. I had NO idea how much cum my body can produce. Multiple gushing delicious orgasms. Astounding amounts for real! Seriously, I'm having the best time of my life. I own my body (see post below) and I love recognising the PoP *POWER OF PUSSY*. This is my year.

Two part, that's right.

Yes. I have also turned down sex in 2010.

2. What is the funniest thing you have ever said or done during sex? (Orgasmic facial expressions do not count. :)

I am extremely ticklish on my neck. Sometimes you can kiss it, lick it and suck it but other times? I feel a breath or a kiss and it's sooooo sensitive that I begin to giggle. This usually makes the boy toy think it's cute so he continues. Next, I burst into gales of giggles, steady laughter and I begin to block my neck. I start moving about and bringing my hands up as a barrier. Then...I stike. Don't tease me baby. I'll fight ya! Yep, that's right. I've hit at least three lovers. None recently.

Another I'd like to share, while perhaps not as amusing unless you have a warped sense of humour. :)

When I was in my early twenties I loved sex just as much as I do now only I never quite figured out the squirting thing. No matter, I enjoyed it anyhow. I had my boyfriend kneeling behind me as I was spread on all fours. He was fucking me hard. He took himself completely out and made a hard thrust. He missed the mark. Now, I know what you're thinking. It wasn't my ass *though i've had that happen as well* he hit just above on the tip of my tailbone with his rock hard cock. Excruciating pain soared up my spinal cord. I collapsed on the bed and was done for the night. Gawd he felt badly. I had to call in sick the next day and couldn't sit comfortably for a week easy. Unfortunate, but something we were aware of from that point on.

3. What is the first thing you notice about a member of the opposite sex?

If they are facing me, smile and eyes for sure. I think we all know what it feels like when we come face to face with someone we find extremely attractive. I love when that happens, but honestly I notice so many things about people. A gorgeous face doesn't always make a gorgeous person. Smiles matter and the eyes are so linked to it.

If they are walking away you can be damn sure I will be checking out that ass. I am such a little ass looker. I could describe the asses of at least a dozen people I know right off the cuff. Although, that's only in clothes. Don't even get me going on the ones I've gotten to view in the buff. mmm mmm yummy. I loves me a sweet round ass.

4. What is the best pick-up line you have ever heard? Every used? Ever been used on you?

I can't think of a specific line that really "worked" on me, but you know what I've done in the past? Even while in relationships, I've always been quite friendly when I'm out. Not even flirty...it's just that if someone talks to me I talk to them. I've been known to say what I think when I speak to someone. I've given many a compliment while applying lipstick in the restroom of a bar. It makes others feel good and does the same for me. I love this one though...

I'll see a sexy hot guy walk by. At some point I will place myself near him and say "I find you very attractive...just sayin" or "I just wanted to tell you that you are so yummy hot it's not even funny." then walk away. Simple. Sometimes they come and talk to me, sometimes not. Either way I think it made that person feel good in that moment. I've done this many times over the years. *sigh* I feel the urge to go dancing now.

5. Where is the most unique you have ever had sex?

I was attending a wedding. My boyfriend was the best man. He was wearing a very handsome tux and I had on a black dress with a crinoline in the skirt. Very fitted in the waist, then going out around my thighs to the knee. Low cut with no sleeves. We walked out onto a beautiful veranda facing calm lake water. It curved to the left in an "L" shape to the side of the reception hall. We sat down on there where we could be alone. We kissed passionately and decided we were just gonna go for it! I pulled down my panties (with his assistance) and tucked them into my purse. I sat on his lap. Him on the wood bench attached to the exterior of the deck, pants open, cock exposed. I wore heals which pulled me up and gave be leverage. No one came around the corner but there was always that chance. My skirt laid about his legs. People would have known but could never say with 100% surety. Once we finished I cleaned a little and took my spot next to him. Time to socialize.

Bonus (as in optional): Do you pee in the shower? If so, has any SO known that you pee in the shower? Has any SO peed in the shower?

Yes. I pee in the shower occasionally. I normally do that before but if it happens I'm ok with it. Obviously I'm going to wash myself afterwards, so it's not like my body will be icky. Of course, I'm the one who cleans the tub also(i'm a little anal about it really) so I'm unconcerned. My ex husband also peed in the shower sometimes, though not while we were there together. None other that I know of.

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Do people in other countries have "Pancake Day"? Well, here where I live that's today. Supposed to have pancakes for dinner traditionally. Fun!

Acceptance of oneself

2010-02-13T20:43:00.004-04:00

I just logged onto facebook and my friend sunshine tagged me in a "note". She posted an absolutely beautiful and poignant quote. I really love it...enjoy! Hope you're all having a great weekend. I miss you all so much and look forward to some private time to catch up.

xoxo
loves autumn

Imperfectly Perfect ♥ by Virginia Satir

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”